Mind if I rant a little about personal stuff.
So I wanted to get some advice about relationship stuff about a girl I had a crush on back when I was starting high school (m28 now.) but long story short, things ended badly, she was younger than me and I met her in church, it had been really the first time I’d had anyone reciprocated feeling like that, so much so that I came clean to her about being into diapers, we were friends first before anything, only later did we start crushing on each other, but we would tell and share stuff like that with each other, she shared she was into reading and fantasies, I’d share so video games with her, I’d show her like bioshock, infamous, darkness II, etc., then it’d get into deeper stuff, she’d let slip some times she’d thought about how it’d be nice to be tied up sometimes, and after some times she’d thought I finally came out and told her that I’d sometimes like to think about being in diapers, and you know she didn’t think it was weird, she said she’d even thought about trying out some pink pull ups on once in blue moon, it was great, it wasn’t sexual initially either, she was different, simply being around her made me happy, I just wanted to be in the same room with her and that was enough, but then her mom found out, dragged her out of church, threatened to charge me with rape, and I’d barely ever saw her past that. But here I am near twelve years later and still I think about her, I’ve tried getting with other people ( never really worked out but I have tried ), but I don’t know why I still think about her, hell she’s probably got her own husband and kids by now with how great she was, but here I am still wondering what could of been, thinking I’m pathetic. Got any advice for how I can move on?
PS- the reason for this is recently their was a girl on here around her saying she’s from at least the same region as me saying wants more ABDL friends while I’ve thinking about her recently again and just thought that was really weird, but now I thought hey I’ve got a place full of people that might have advice on how to get over this, any help would be appreciated.