25 [F4R] #Innsbruck/Austria - Just a chat.
Nice to meet you.
My name is Katharina and ...I find kink to be something that is deeply, deeply important to me. I take great pride in the work that I have been able to put into it, as of recent.
Engaging in intimacy of this intensity is no small feat, it requires a conscious effort to self-reflect, to communicate that which one unearths in the former step and a considerable level of trust. I am lucky to have been able to build up this level of trust with a few people, as of yet. These connections, however, have been entirely online - partially due to reasons I will go over in more detail later on.
I am writing this post, as I would like to meet a fellow kinkster in person. I have not lived in Innsbruck for a long time - regardless, I was able to forge strong connections with my peers and I am grateful to call many of them my friends. Despite this, neither of them have proven to be able to understand me on this level.
The type of play I engage with tends to be intense, emotionally-driven and in most cases rather niche in content. I could not begin to explain these experiences to someone who lacks an innate sense of "getting it". I am blessed to be understood in many ways, though.
My nerdiness, my queerness, all my little character-quirks; they all have been embraced by these friends - now, I simply yearn for one more friend or two who also understand this part of me.
When it comes to tastes and preferences, I am rather non-standard. In some ways, a walking contradiction. I am quite flexible to the "content" of a scene, even roles are things that I find myself to be rather agnostic to. I trust that things fall into place. I feel no need to ascribe to myself the title of a domme, or a sub, or anything in between. Getting to know each other, learning a person as one does a skill... it is a chaotic process. Chaos is unpredictable, messy, dirty. But when the dust settles, all things will have fallen in place. And shall I find myself on my knees, so be it. And shall I find a kneeling friend before my feet, I will not complain either.
I am limited in some sense, however. I cannot and will not be able to reciprocate, accept or in most cases even be able to understand sexual intimacy. I am entirely asexual and sex-averse. Due to my orientation and a trauma-heavy history, the realm of sex is one that is entirely inaccessible to me. Please do not approach me with this sort of thing on your mind.
My approach to kink is more cognitive than physical and that is reflected in my previous experiences in scenes, which heavily rely on emotional sado-masochism and power-exchange. Especially with my long-term partner, I have been able to intensify these motifs to a degree where the inclusion of CNC-elements felt natural, as well.
I also tend to write at length about my experiences and fantasies and have amassed quite a library of (un-)fiction. These works are deeply private and intimate to me, so I would not feel comfortable with linking them here - but should we get to know each other, I'd be happy to share some of my rambles with you.
In general, I am not necessarily looking for a "play-partner" at the moment, nor do I feel as if in-person play is something I could easily do. It takes me a while to build up trust of any sort, due to the limitations I outlined above. That being said, don't doubt things will fall into place. If a comfortable dynamic arises, so be it.
I am looking for "Just a chat.", though. Someone I could go on a coffee-run with, while gushing about the insane things I got up to last night. Someone who... well, "gets it".
Let me know if you're interested!