u/BoogalosMemeMachine

This is not anything hot or special, just some thoughts I wanted to share.

A year ago I was at a big low point in my life. I didn't feel good at all anymore, and a few weeks after meeting this girl back then, I basically begged her to make me her pet because I couldn't handle life anymore. We started with making me eat out of a bowl and wearing collars and tails and all that stuff, but after a while I stopped because it didn't really help, and she's not the pushy one or likes to make rules or that stuff.

We kept on going, being in a relationship. She found a well paying job because I helped her over her depression, and a few months ago now I quit my own job because I cannot do it anymore. My mind just feels very weak, I have a heavy depression caused by way back trauma etc. now I'm sitting at home, cleaning, taking care of little things. We moved into a new flat and even got a cage for me, and I stay there often.

The big thought came to me a few weeks ago when I tried to install some internet thing for her, thought I messed up, and cried for 2 hours because I couldn't handle disappointing her. I realised I can't even really leave our home anymore, because I don't want to leave her, her things, the things that smell like her. I realised I ask her before I do anything on my own. I realised how incapable I became just because of her constant care. She is there; it's fine. I realised my greatest joy in the world now comes from seeing her happy, and I started working on myself because I need to be good so she is happy.

My friends sometimes don't realise I'm there anymore. Other pets and owners people instantly realise what I am; I turned from a very unhappy, strange, completely dysphoric person into a little, useless but happy pile as long as I'm with her. I don't need to wear a collar anymore, or do things like crawling over the floor, to always know what I am, and to know that I'll never be anything more again, and I really like it like that.

Maybe it's just a little heads up that with the right person everything will work out in ways that you cannot even see right now, but others can, and they will show you, maybe even without you realising.