I am 60 years old. For a few years I have had a fantasy/desire/need to be in a Dom/sub situation where the Dom wants to make my bottom incontinent. In an online situation, I would be guided down this path.
The idea of being incontinent scares the hell out of me but the feelings won’t go away.
I’ve read about how to avoid prolapse (I don’t want that).
Are there other Doms and subs that have done this? Is it a thing? If so, how is it done?
I’ve been submissive as long as I can remember. Long term marriage, but something has been missing. I’ve thought about being used by a dominant male for several years.
The need to be humiliated, used, and degraded keeps coming back. I have tried to keep the feelings away but they always return.
I need to feel shame, risk, pain, regret. My body is meant to be property. I know I need things that I may not like, but are necessary for someone like me.
I think about anal a lot. Have played with my bottom from an early age. I have thoughts about my hole being opened and abused. Maybe damaged in some way.
Looking for a mature Dom or Master to help guide me. Help me walk down a dark path.
For the right person, I won’t have many limits. Nothing illegal. Don’t want to ruin my marriage.
Sorry for rambling. My mind is racing.