u/BreakDue8198

took a client inside to my room as usual asked for payment upfront,told me he will after a quick shower.

after all this time of asking it upfront I really slippednst this part and said ok and as you can guess when he looked at his bank balance he realized he had none

and he was like "ok gonna ask my brother to send money" I told him no I don't do stuff like that and he was like "no trust me you can trust me" after 15 min of just constantly arguing and yelling at him to get out he finally got out but the problem is the hotel counts him as a visitor and I have to pay a visitor fee between 400-500tl

so now I just lost money because logically it was my mistake to not immediately kick him out,when I need the money most and this night been dry at the street,whatever happens happens because of trusting men,what makes me more sad is I can't tell this to anyone because then I will be seen as dumb one because yeah I AM dumb! edit:well got a client which allowed me to at least make money tonight so I'm more calm,guess for every bad thing that happens something good follows by,don't be like me and just let one bad thing make you incredibly depressed

it's been like 3 months since starting working the streets and I begun realizing something:normal life seems boring to me and when I try to think what I would do as a civ career nothing that will ever make me happy comes to my mind

my chosen sister did this job for 10 years on the streets and now works a civ job,she does wants to contiue SW but doesn't do it because her husband doesn't wants it and she is ok with it because she loves her husband

and my chosen little sister who knows about how my job works doesn't wanna do it because she has a bf and wants to live a normal live with him

I'm geniunely happy for both of them but after hearing all of this I couldn't help but think:"why the hell they would choose a life like that?" and it made me realize that I never imagined what I would do if I were to ever quit SW,

I never had a normal happy life to begin with till I left my parents and begin street work...it makes me wonder if I have some sort of problem or if it is just a preference issue

lately I realized whenever I get no clients for the night at the streets when I get to bed I do feel sad and feel like I'm not beatiful and women enough and it took me talking to another working trans friend of mine

who is very beatiful,had wonderful nights when she earned ton of money so when I told her about how no client nights makes me feel ugly and how it makes me feel not women enough she just told me:"what? ofc you are not ugly! it's based on luck honey,having paid sex isn't what makes you women,I had nights when I got no clients too!"

it made me realize I might have unknowingly equated getting client with being women and not getting a client with not being women enough,probably came from the times when I lived with my parents hiding I'm trans,unable to dress up and act like a women having to

pretend to be a men the only thing that made me feel like women and made the pain go away was sexting with men,thus why I even considered this career,to feel like women and it worked so good,right now I can't think of any other future then this street but now I realize this might be also take away my happiness because realistically I can't have a client every single night and I don't wanna quit SW neither,just needed to get it off my chest I guess

a question to those who got lowballed and ti thise who accepted it:is it very likely that the man who lowballs is more likely to be problematic and harm you? usually whenever a man straight up lowballs me hard from the beginning disrespect is the impression I get so I just tell them to fuck off

so had a guy who was obviously drunk but seemed ok,we got into sex and in the middle of it he started kissing my butthole,I told him to stop because it's disgusting! it is the same hole that shit comes from! he stops and contiues having sex and kisses me with the same mouth that kissed my butthole so told him to not do it with the

same lips(I have OCD so I can't help it) and he just stopped and angrily said me "alright let's not contiue then,I'm here to have sex" so yeah we both got up and dressed and he was also saying "thought you weren't like other girls,I'm disappointed by the service" as if he didn't just started kissing my ass without asking if I'm ok with it then tried to kiss me with those same disgusting lips

kinda feel stupid tho because before this I already knew that drunk men are problematic %98 of the time yet somehow accepted a drunk guy but hey guess on the bright side got money without fully having sex

me and other working girls uses hotel for work however there is always some men who says "I don't do it in the hotel" the thing is neither being SW nor being the client is illegal here so there is nothing to be really afraid of,it really makes me wonder if the actual reason is they

wanna harm us in some way but they have to give their ID to the hotel so they won't be able to do it,is there any other reason why men doesn't trusts hotels?

alright so when I have a man interested in meeting with sometimes they ask for nude photos or ass photos and when I say I don't send stuff like that they change their mind about meeting me,and the reason why I don't send it is because I also work the streets and there is a high chance of the men being a timewaster getting my nude and finding me on the street later on and harassing me

but this makes me wonder if sending nude photo for a potential client who is interested is normal or not,it just doesn't seems right

I want you to ask something to yourself:if you had a civ career and just had free random hookups with men everyday would you be treated better by men? we would still have cheapstake,rude misogynistic,boundary crossing creepy men trying to hit on us who thinks just because they bought coffee for us we immediately owe them sex

if society really wants to help SWers they should instead focus on raising men to become gentlemans that actually respects women instead of just making SW illegal and arresting SWers to "save them"

just a random thought I had in my mind,alright good day girls!

cops at the blade have been nothing but a fukin nuisance

they don't arrest drug dealers,they don't do anything to methheads harassing people

the only shit they do here is telling the working girls to move on to somewhere else and harassing the hotel we bring the clients to they did it yesterday and they did it again today! one of the cops even said:"don't let any trans come in this hotel" normally what the cop said would count as discrimination but you know,cops are never held accountable for what they do or say.luckily the hotel owner and the recepsionist supports us

needed a bit of ranting,FUCK THE POLİCE!

there is nothing more a man values then getting to bang a women so logically speaking when it comes to paying for it men must be the most generous people on earth right? NO! THEY ARE FUCKİNG CHEAPSTAKES!

I absolutely hate the audacity of men daring to ask a working girl if she can do it for free "just for this time" or a guy saying if he can do it for 600tl even tho I say it's 1500tl and even counts the cash he has as if he has any worthy amount of money

I swear to gods guess this job just makes me hate broke man even more

after 2.5 month of escaping the house I talked with them again via video chat and since they knew what job I was doing during this time so they were worried and even more worried when I talked about the homeless population at the city I live at and the amount of drug users (specifically crystal meth users)

and their reaction was just being scared and telling me to not be a dealer,use drugs,not talking with homeless people and it really made me think:all of the stuff I have experienced at street SW feels very normal to me,and they don't even know my whole story because if I tell they will be like "noo it's too dangerous!"

it's just frustrating how if I decide to keep talking with my parents it will mean not talking about MY ACTUAL LİFE! it will be just a normal boring conversation that doesn't involves the real me,what I'm really are instead just their desired version of me I geniunely think this relationship can't be rebuild,is it really worth it if I can't talk about the real me?

where I work (the streets)it's more common for workers to act very slutty and dress very slutty and I do get comments about looking innocent from other sex workers,this honestly makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me doig this business and wanted to ask:is this type of work persona niche or more common then I think it is?

found him from a dating site,at first he was all nice and agreed to do it at my place,we scheduled it for night to first meet somewhere very close to my apart (so I can check out if he gives me bad vibes) but when the time arrived he was like:"hey I'm at the park,wanna come here

and just kiss instead of having sex?" told him no

and he kept insisting again and again saying how he doesn't trusts daily apartments for having sex in and I told him how I'm supposed to trust doing it in park with no one to help me out. ofc he was like all "oh you can trust me babe" told him that I lost my trust on him and never texted to him again,mfer thought he could just lure me into a trap like I born just yesterday

a guy wanted to hook up with me,I refused because he was unsafe and at the end he threatens to report me to cops next time he sees me,buying escort services isn't a crime but being an escort is,what I wonder is:can he just use the texts as proof to report me to the police? and what would be the best choice I shall take if it goes down that way? obviously ain't kneeing down to a blackmail but want to be prepared edit:living in turkey so no,being a john isn't a crime here

whenever someone doesn't wants to use a condom first thing they say is:"but baby I'm cleann!" how tf you know that?! do they really think anyone would believe this crap?

what kind of a dumbass would think that bareback with a street hooker is a good idea? I swear this job would be 10 times better if all these men that wants bareback just fucked away

while walking the blade a cop car stopped by,wished good luck with the work? asked for my ID then my age and told me "you must be new here we never seen you here" and asked me what I'm doing,obviously told them that I'm just hanging around(they obviously didn't buy it)

told me this ain't a place to hang around,gave me my ID then went away

the good news is they can't do anything as standing still isn't a crime and most they can do is catching me while talking to a car or a man and give me a tiny fine

so after 8 days of working at a club I wanna go back to the blade since there is literally no bread for me here

but the problem is half of the cars that stops thinks I'm trans so this makes me wonder if I'm missing out on clients because those who seeks trans but thinks I'm cis so they don't stop.

this is a stupid question yes but is there anything to make it more clear that I'm trans?

today a guy working at a club that I meat earlier invited me to hang out at a club and offered free drink and he told me that I can work here and be given a wage and a cut from every drink the man I spend time with orders,and I will be also provided with the clothing for work...

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it's a nice offer that I would like to accept tomorrow night

I'm just afraid of not performing well...there is only one way to find out I guess

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don't know how but half of the cars that stops thinks I'm cis but after hearing my voice they ask if I'm trans lol it's so common it honestly makes me worried if after voice training I will have to state I'm trans to every single car that stops

a long story with very bad storytelling skills

she was always unstable and aggressive but last night she fucked up big: a guy came in with another swer and told us he wants us two with him I instantly realized there was something wrong,just a gut feeling however my friend just hopped in,not wanting to leave her alone I hopped in too

guy told us he wants to do foursome,the other swer girl said nope and he returned her to the corner and I said I don't wanna do group sex neither even though my friend tried to convince me to do it,he said "ok I can return you back" but my friend refused to let me leave the car saying I stay at the car

then she tried to convince the men for a one to one paid sex however men disagreed on the price and told her it ain't happening then she refused to exit the car,so we stuck for 1-2 hour in his car with him wanting to leave us somewhere but girl trying to convince her and me just sitting at the back wanting this shit to be over

then she tried to convince me to either sneakily steal his money or pepper spray him then take his money,that's when she lost all respect in my eyes,trying to put me not herself into something like this so I left

after leaving she texted and I told her that I ain't taking up with her trying to make me do something like this and she tried to gaslight me saying she was just "joking" when I called it out she just told me I can't work at any corner,she won't let me,how she has a little sister who is

crystal addict for 8 years.mfer thinks she can own 6-7 corner at the same time so now I got a turf war to fight,the good thing is the girl's only way of fighting is pepper spray which becomes useless when I also have pepper spray