u/Bryce_1972

First, if this discussion in inappropriate for this sub, I’ll promptly remove it. And if there is a more appropriate sub for these discussions, please let me know.

That said, I‘m wondering if some of you have had similar feelings and/or did similar things growing up. Did it pass or did it become a part of you?

In my youth, like most people, I started experimenting with how different things made me feel inside (always solo - no underage anything). Here are a few:

I got into my mother’s sewing tin and began piercing my nipples, belly, and penis with sewing needles, safety pins, and regular pins. What a wonderful assortment of sharp, pointy, things. At first, just a poke, then in, then through. I don’t remember if I used alcohol, but I never got an infection. The first time I pierced my nipple, it hurt and stayed erect for 2-3 days. And I learned how far blood sprays after removing the needle from my penis head.

I also really wanted to try sucking myself and tasting my cum. However, I never found a position where I could get close enough to lick, let alone suck. I would jack off into my hand, determined taste some cum, then lose all interest after orgasm. Over and over and over. Finally, I found by getting close to cumming, then throwing my legs over my head, I could cum into my mouth. I remember thinking just before and during orgasm, “well, I’m already here, no point in moving now.” This was a breakthrough! I did this many times over several years, but never found it to be comfortable, the aim was always tricky to get it all in my mouth, and could never get close enough to lick - so I lost interest in this method but not the act.

I also experimented with exhibitionism, mostly showing my butt and sometimes spreading to show my hole. This was at a time where there were very few cameras and people were less uptight. While visiting relatives, I shaved my legs, cut off some shorts so my cheeks would show, and went for a walk well before the stores opened (and while they were at work). I did this several times and found it satisfying in a normal kind of way.

Looking back on these activities, and there are so many more, this was probably the beginning of me exploring my submissiveness and my femininity, which continues to this day.

I welcome your thoughts and experience!