Never going to happen?
I’m just rambling.
I’m always in this weird stage of understanding I don’t think this will happen for me.
I don’t see myself letting someone spank me that I’m not in a relationship with. But I also don’t want a relationship??? Still sad with knowing that’s not in my future but I want a freaking spanking :/ I’m tired of daydreaming and reading stories.
The realization I might not get a spanking is heavy on my mind after year lmao. And I’d like to commit to going back to school and I just think that would be great for me. 😩
Idk. I’m just trying to find a compromise:/ but the idea of casual play partners is a hell no for me. That doesn’t make me feel good. And I don’t like casual anything. So hence why I just don’t care to have a romantic relationship anymore. This mediocre stuff ppl want to give..
But how the hell am I suppose to get my spanking otherwise 😩😩🤧🤧
*update. I have been on Fetlife and every other website under the sun I’m 28. Im vain and I’d like to also be attracted to who’s spanking me because I do see it in a sexualized way.