u/Busy_Bicycle7653

When i was 18 i was raped in my dorm room. Ever since then (almost 5 years ago now) i have touched myself to the memory of it and basically anything involving consent and power and victimhood and manipulation and humiliation makes me cum so hard and feel so good.

Ever since I was little I wanted to feel special. And this made me realize I am not special. When he raped me, it was like ge erased me.

And when he was done he sneered at me and said "just another slut" and walked out of the room. And what hurts the most is that i know that he was right.