Hi everyone, I hope you're all doing well.
This is my first time posting on this subreddit, so... here we go.
I'm a female who started exploring BDSM a few years ago, and through trial and error, I discovered that I really enjoyed following orders, having rules, and having someone to control me in... you know what aspects.
The problem is that I've wanted a Dom for a while now, but the few times I've tried virtual encounters, it hasn't gone very well. I work and I'm in university, so time is something I have limited in. I try to be obedient, but then they don't like my job or my studies (and I love my job and my career), and we end up breaking up.
I've even thought that the problem is me, but then I just long to be able to submit, even just a little. I'm afraid that those situations will repeat themselves and that I won't have "submissive material," but lately, I've missed it so much that it almost hurts. I don't know if anyone else has gone through the same thing or not; I just wanted to vent because I feel frustrated.
Thanks for reading ♡