Ok so im pretty new at anything approaching kink, so this may not make much sense.
Im typing this to try and feel like ive told someone about this when at the minute im far too embarassed to say anything to anyone and im trying to work through some things out loud. Please be gentle, im learning as i go! Please dont hate on me! And yea when i think about it its still a bit weird.
I (44F) recently had what might have been the best sex of my life and its really weird and im trying to get my head around it but its all because my girlfiend (39MTF) has been introducing some new kinks into our sex life.
So let me back up. My girlfriend came out to me during covid and after years of waiting she got started on HRT. Now more recently weve found changes to her sex drive, her skin, her tactile sensations, and weve been adapting our sex lives as each change occurs, moving away from penetration to using vibrating toys etc and pretty much every change has been good for both of us with only a couple of misses. Recently her love of certain textures, scents and sounds became a kind of central aspect for her and our sex became very focused around these aspects such as soft clothing, undressing rituals, candles etc and its switched our dynamic in a really fun and interesting way as ive found some things i didnt know i liked! Shes been leading the way with introducing things as her desires and needs change and our first breakthrough was how much i like following her lead. I think this gives you the needed context!
The most recent introduction had me extremely sceptical and i was a hairs bredth from saying no to the attempt at all, but my generally open mind couldnt see the harm in trying as it only involves us 2 consenting adults and i will admit to being equal parts emabarassed at the thought and curious. so i agreed as a one off and we discussed limits, aftercare and all the other stuff thats essential for any sort of sexual activity. Then we got what we would need and decided that this weekend was going to be a good time to try.
So what was introduced was my girlfriend and I applying a remote control vibration tool to the relevent errogonous zones for each other and then placing an adult nappy on to each other. Yea its as crazy as it sounds and im not sure what made it work for me so well, the well timed application of the vibrator, the slight shame and embarassment, the feel of the extra "padding" between my thighs, the crinkling sound as either of us moved, the softness of the plastic as it glides under her hands or as i feel her. Half of what i felt defies explanation, the sheer joy mixed with embarasment and naughtyness when i let go and wet myself when sitting on her lap and the same when she let go on mine. The insanely intimate sensastions as she cleaned me up and changed me into a clean nappy as i then did the same for her. Like holy hell, i lost count of the number of orgasms that raced through me and ive never felt that way before. It was a massive shock to my system once we had finished and half of our aftercare was helping me come down from the high i was riding, (my gf had her share of aftercare too)
Dont mistake me it took a little time for me to warm up into it and i was initially worried it was a miss for me even if it was a hit for her, but now all ive been able to think of is how long before she gets back from work so that we can talk about doing it again. I never would have considered it before and honestly i think ive been missing out. Im trying to do some more reading about this kink, but cant really concentrate so i thought id see if venting helps me process.