i wish people weren't so ashamed of me
sorry, a little bit of a venting post. i just seem to have a lot of bad luck, specifically when it comes to dating. i've only really dated two people before. the first one took a full year to introduce me to his family. and when it happened, i felt that his family was a little bit judgmental of my weight. it was never really that bad, but i only went to one or two family gatherings in the 3 years that we dated. he also wouldn't hold my hand in public or really even go on any public dates with me. lots of movies at home and takeout.
the guy i'm seeing right now has yet to even officially ask me to be his girlfriend. much less introduce me to family or anything. i know his ex was a college athlete and very skinny. it just gets to a point where i can't help but feel like im only good enough to be kept hidden. he's never outright said anything bad about my weight or anything like that, it's just so hard. i feel like im wasting my time for a guy that doesn't even think im worthy of meeting his family or friends. (seeing eachother for a year and a half btw? like?)
i'm sorry for venting, and i know it's a downer. this has just been my biggest dating complaint as a fat woman. and i know ive seen men talk about being ashamed of their preference here before. it just really sucks feeling like you're not good enough.
and i know everyone is just going to tell me to leave him, i get it. i'm just a little crazy and too attached right now. let me be a little emotional 😔