u/CarpenterAlert4009

fuckn picture me this: a 8 day bender from hell, like maybe one whole meal, sleep? maximum 18 hours. meth? i did it all. so much meth. body forced me to sleep for 6 hours last night and i rushed to get packed for rehab, did a shit job. so here i sit, stinky, skin picked to high hell and back (i mean really and truly i fucked my shit all the way up), high on so much cocaine (1g in 1.5 hours on the eay here), and i genuinely wish the earth would swallow me whole. i land in like 6 hours and the rehav is picking me up in the morning, and i can't drink because they said it could affect my admission because they require "medical stability" sooo

the problem is it's not just what im taking to treatment, i have to pack everything and leave my current situation before i can take off. so, picture me this. you're on day 7 of a gnarly binge, picked your face to bad it's literally mortifying, you haven't slept or ate anywhere even remotely close to the bare minimum, and haven't packed a thing. and you have to do it all by yourself due to the circumstances of your departure.

so how do i actually manage to carry all my shit to my car without like, passing out? i was given an extension on my original time to take off thanks to my company having an interal delay. new timeline: anywhere from the previous goal of 8.5 hours from now, all the way up to potentially 24 hours from now. help?

been on a binge with like extremely minimal sleep and food for 1 week exactly, it's currently 5:06a on wednesday morning and today im supposed to pack up everything i own, load it all into my car, pay off all my dealers / fronts, buy a plane ticket, and show up at the airport by 6p to fly to another state for said rehab, so i got some more dope bc i had run out and i was crashing n my body is wore tf out from this week.

and then i smoked for 2 hours and 20 minutes straights, almost the entire 1.5gs of the best quality dope ive ever touched.

lowkey atp just praying i even make it to rehab, jesus. the hell ive been putting my body through was starting to catch up to me but i can confidently say i dont feel any symptoms anymore lol. im not scared im gonna die which is cool, but im not not worried about it, ya know? i've done shit like this before but never with dope this good and never after a binge this reckless, i bet i looked twacked tf out omg

genuinely say a prayer for me bc god damn

listennnn i know that sounds ridiculous but nothing was planned and i just kept acquiring substances and i've been sleeping... occasionally... lol and anyways i had stopped last night and ended up reuping (i am a drug addict fs) and when i stopped to look at the calendar i was like oh fuck, i started 6 days ago and i have got not a lotta sleep lol.
but the batch i got tn was so strong for 30 minutes i thought i was gonna die fr and now im off my face again but im sleeping today for sure because i dont want to have a literal stroke so anyways how are yall

hi, just wanted to see if anyone was skiing and feeling chatty? i tried joining the discord server and am waiting for my verification to be approved but it looks like there's only 6 people on the server lol