I have a question
Hello!
I'm very new to being genderfluid (at least I'm pretty sure I am) and I have a general question.
It might be more for the transmasc community but I thought I'd ask here!
I'll try to be technical in my terms but I don't know much about the topic (I just haven't had the time to do research besides a few websites so bare with me haha).
So... I like my body the way it is (I'm AFAB) but sometimes I really wish I had a working penis. I've considered surgery (not anytime soon, just in the future) and I have a packer that I wear every now and then (which helps) but I was wondering if anyone felt the same way?
I'm worried if I do get surgery (in the future) I'll have to go on testosterone and it will make my body look different. I also just don't know if it's possible to get that kind of surgery and keep everything down there mostly the same (Like literally just attach a working penis to the nerves that exist there). I know about phalloplasty (I think that's the right one?). But I was hoping I could hear from someone with first hand experience.
I'm probably just overthinking everything to much (since this would be way later in life) but I was also wondering if anyone else feels this way?
It's like I want to be all the genders but being femme or masc comes and goes no matter what gender affirming things I'm wearing. If any of that makes sense
Also if anyone has any tips on hiding big boobs in clothes to be more masc PLEASE share I have a binder but it feels like it doesn't do anything. But I don't want to get top surgery or a reduction because I like them when I'm feeling more femme! It feels so confusing sometimes (；´∀｀)
If only I could shape shift 😔