My desire is unfulfillable and it's miserable

I (28m) have pretty dark non-consensual fantasies. I've tried CNC many times with different men, but it just never does anything for me. It's like my brain is incapable of suspending disbelief, it can never let go of the fact that it's all agreed upon, hence it's not really non-consensual.

Obviously they aren't things I can really ever make happen in life for real. So I just forever have this impossible to fulfill desire and it's miserable lol. What's worse is every time I hook up with a dominant or aggressive man it only makes the desire stronger without really quenching the thirst.

So yeah I just need to vent and I also really want to know if there are others like me out there.

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u/Christopher_Lee98 — 2 days ago

(28m) is anyone else incapable of suspension of disbelief

I'm a gay sub with non consensual fantasies. I've tried CNC lots of times with different people, but it just never does it for me at all, because my brain can never let go of the fact that it's agreed upon. But obviously those fantasies aren't things I can really make happen. So I just forever have this desire that's impossible to fulfill and it's miserable lol. I wanna know if there are others like this out there.

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u/Christopher_Lee98 — 2 days ago