r/gayconfessions

First time posting here! Not sure how it goes but happy to answer more below or in dms. The names are changed to keep people anonymous :)

Back in college (a big one in nyc), I (20m at the time) consider myself sexually fluid, but preferred women. But I was always curious about men and experimented occasionally through Grindr. However, I don’t think anyone could tell and I wasn’t open about it. I guess I came off as straight as well.

One of my last semesters of junior year, I had to take a class where we worked with TAs extensively. One of them was Ryu, a Japanese grad student. He was in his late 20s with a shorty stocky build. Not necessarily my type and he came off as very straight. He even mentioned his wife back in Japan a few times over the semester. However, we would chop it up as bros often as I was one of the few people who turned up to extra office hours and other opportunities. This was purely to engage with the material and my instructors.

On the last day of finals, I was exhausted but relieved so decided to relax in the library before I met up for friends later in the day. I think the combination of relief and boredom made me super horny for some reason. I always had a kink of hooking up somewhere I could get caught such as work or school. I decided to check Grindr to see if I could find someone I liked. I had a few people hit me up due to the proximity which made me realize how many other horny guys were in the area.

One guy caught my eyes. He was anon in his profile but sent me nudes right away; I kinda liked that straight to the point. He was fit but not super lean, had an average but thicker cock, and a slightly hairy but round bubble butt. He asked if I was in the library and if I could send some pics of myself. I happily obliged and let him know that I’m happy to inconspicuously meet up. He let me know that he’s a TA and has access to the discreet study rooms for TAs. I know those rooms. They’re essentially a large closet with a desk and light. He asked if I wanted to hook up in there as he was horny but needed to study soon lol. I was totally down but asked for a face picture before going over.

I was shocked to see it was Ryu. I instantly felt nervous and a little sick. I initially wanted to just delete the app and walk away from the situation. But surprisingly, my cock was rock hard and I was leaking precum. My body wanted to see this through. I steeled up some courage and decided to meet him there. I sent my face pic as I was getting on the elevator to get to his floor, as I was nervous as well. I guess he didn’t see it lol.

I knocked on his door, and he quickly let me in. When he realized who I was, he was speechless and literally had his jaw open. We both were extremely awkward and eventually said hi, expressing how surprised we were. But we both could tell we were extremely horny.

He made the first move and put his hand on my crotch. I followed suit and did the same while stepping in to kiss him. We both made out and groped each other. He was firm and built and I enjoyed feeling his tight ass and back.

he started to take my pants off and quietly unbuckled my belt. He first sniffed my crotch before licking my balls and my shaft. He worked his way to taking my whole cock. He grabbed my ass and made me give him my whole cock. I couldn’t help it and face fucked him back.

He then looks up and wipes his mouth and asks if I can suck him off too. I make him sit on the desk, while sliding down his pants and underwear. He was already leaking so much pre cum that his underwear was already soiled. I took his cock in my mouth and gave him head the best I could, and he came within 3 minutes. I’m not usually a swallower, and to this day, I’ve only swallowed his cum.

We initially agreed to just give each other some head, but he turned around and asked if I ate ass. I said absolutely. I had him get down on his back on the desk before exploring his hairy asshole and taint. I slowly worked my finger in, and then two, loosening him up. Staring him in the eyes but no words, I got up and adjusted his knees so that they’re on my shoulder. With very minimal spit and adjusting, i was deep inside my TA. I don’t think we were very discreet at this point but luckily the rooms next door were empty and we were in A corner room. I came deeep inside him, made out some more, and finally started to dress myself.

Funny enough, we just dapped each other up and went our separate ways. I still see little updates on LinkedIn about what he’s up to but he’s back in Japan

The other night I told my gf I want to suck a dick. She is comfortable with me sleeping with a dude. I respect her wishes and understand… but I need a big dick down my throat to worship. I think the only way is to cheat to get my needs off.

I’ve finally gotten to the point where getting fucked in my ass really doesn’t hurt anymore, it just feels good. SOOOOOO fucking good! So good that’s all I really about these days. I didn’t know it was possible to really control the level of pain that goes with getting fucked but it totally is and ever since I realized it I’ve found myself actually masterbating with a dildo and seeing if I can cum without even touching my dick and I totally can! There is nothing better than an anal orgasm! I love it so much.

Just kinda wanted to share it with someone lol

I’m 22, and been wanting to experiment more with voyeurism and jerking off together so I started looking around for people who wanna stroke near me. I had 2 people flake on me in like 20 minutes lol but ended up having an older guy come through later and he watched me stroke my nut out it was pretty fun. Just wanted to share and see if you guys had any similar experiences or tips for the future.

My first time having sex with a guy was a year after I graduated from high school. His name was Bob, and he was the son of my father's friend. We were in the same grade in school. Before we had sex, when we were younger, we would play around and sleep in the same bed. Also, before this incident, Bob had tried to have sex with me in his car when we were in high school, and I was in a different part of my hometown at the time. When we had sex, he asked me to be the bottom and he be the top, so l agreed. He was right because he had a nice dick and ass. However, the experience wasn't great for me at first. But after we had sex a few more times, the bottoming became great, and I started to prefer being on bottom for a guy, not top. Top is just okay. Bottoming is very hot.
P.S. Bob now has a wife and three children. Also, if bottoming was a membership, I'd be a member for life.

True story all 21+

This was sophomore year of college (2012) at a religious university in Texas. I had always wanted to try sucking dick again and so what better time than college right?

I was living off campus and came home a little drunk and stoned one night and got on online to see if I could find some dick nearby to suck. I found someone my age, asian, that was looking to play too. I told him I couldn't drive and I couldn't host and to my surprise he offered to pick me up and take me back to his place. I agreed.

He pulled up and my heart fluttered. There's no turning back now. I get in the car and he's so cute. The car ride seemed to go so quickly. I wanted his dick so badly.

We go upstairs to his room and we both get naked and start to rub each other.

"I'm ready to suck your dick" I say

So he lays down on the bed. He was average probably 5 inches, but I loved it. I started with the head wrapping my lips around it while I grabbed his balls. He started to moan and that got me going. I spit on his dick and take it all down my throat. Now he's moaning even more, so I start to use my hand too and he cums all over his chest.

I was so hard after I made him cum and he said "your turn". I stood up and he got on his knees. Omg this was the best head I ever got. He made me cum so fast all over his face.

Will never forget that night.

My wife has been away for a few days and have been watching the world cup at my house with a friend of mine (both of us are married). Known this guy for like 6 years and we hang out often. But for a few days we have been hanging out watching the games (snacks pizza etc).

But yesterday whilst watching the England v Mexico game at night he celebrated a goal a little too hard and got cramp in his foot. I instinctively started massaging his foot and was teasing him saying how out of shape can you be to get cramp from standing up too fast etc. I kept on massaging and was going to stop but he was like do it a little longer it still hurts so I did. The next bit is a blur but he put his other foot on my lips and I laughed then said come on move. He put it down then went back up to my mouth again and said go on so I put it in my mouth for a suck. I'm so confused as to why I did it or why he did it for that matter. We both kind of laughed it off and left it then he went home after the game.

I'm just so confused and neither of us has messaged eachother thus far.

Ok so basically one day I was in the bathroom and I was just gonna throw something in the trash can there, and when I opened it I barely saw like the edge of something that looked like a condom. I wasn't sure at first, but the idea of a used condom filled with my dads cum got me so horny, so I had to look in there. And I was right, it was a used condom with my dads load. He had tried to hide it by wrapping it around some paper, but I had still found it. I had so many thoughts in my head when I found it and all I wanted to do was to get a taste of his delicious cum, which I did. It tasted so good and the fact that it was from my own dad made me even hornier. I swirled his cum in my mouth and started jerking off, and I even put my own dick in the condom and jerked off in it. Ever since I found his used condom filled with cum I have been extra careful when looking in the trash always hoping to find more. It’s been a year now and it gets me so hard every time and I can't stop it.

Basic training at Lackland Air Force Base. Lots of young men living, working and showering together. I was constantly checking guys out in the shower. One really cute redheaded guy was a little on the chubby side for being in the military, but he was pale white with freckles all over and a wonderful body. He always showered in the corner by himself (I would stand near other guys to get a better view). He was always facing the corner and looking behind him. On 2-3 occasions I figured out why, he was getting hard and hiding his erection. One day I was staring at him and he looked back and caught me looking at him, I didn’t look away. I was a trim blonde with a perfect tiny little ass and i’d turn around to wash it when I knew he was looking. There was definitely some sexual tension between us.

Sadly, in basic training there is never a moment to be alone, even jerking off is super risky. I had never gone so long without ejaculating, and was constantly looking for a place to rub one out quickly.

One day we were given the option to go to the base chapel for services, and there was a separate set of rooms/offices near the chapel that had “normal” restrooms. There was not a lot of traffic here, so figured it would be quiet. I figured now was my chance to jerk off in peace. I tried the door and it was locked and in use. I heard the sink run then the door opens - my redheaded buddy from my training unit! We said hello and locked eyes like we did often in the shower. We both knew we had to make a quick decision and my heart was racing. He invited me in, and locked the door. I quickly pulled down my pants, as did he. He was already hard and told me he really needed somebody to fuck! I grabbed the sink and I arched my back for him and he lubed up with some spit and shoved in his beautiful cock inside me from behind. I was holding the sink looking at him looking down at my ass in the mirror. There was nothing better than feeling his strong hands gripping my little hips and pumping me. He came within about 30 seconds and shot a big load. I grabbed some paper towel and handed it to him. He wiped off and I pulled up my pants quick and went to the toilet. He snuck out and left the door unlocked. I was able to push his cum out and get cleaned up. Since nobody else came in, I locked the door pulled down my pants again, and jerked off a huge load into the toilet. We both pretended like it never happened :)

Am i the only one? Just curious. Im attractive to women and very dominate when it comes to sex with them but with men i dont get a hard on ever. I enjoy letting them dominate me and use me but i dont ever cum with them unless i force myeself too, i just enjoy getting used by them.

Anyone else is the same?

ive seen a good few stories here that are basicly about poeple cheating on there wifes,or girl freinds and it just kinda sucks to read these stories cuz there is genuinly some hot stories but its just kinda hindered by the fact there cheating on there lover. Cheating is NOT hot yall,its just depressing

I’m (31M) currently in Nashville for work, which always gets my juices flowing being in a hotel room. Only problem, is my cheap ass company makes us room with whoever else is on the trip. On this trip, my roommate is definitely not someone who I’d get lucky with, lol. Anyways, his trip is 2 days shorter than mine, and left yesterday afternoon. I couldn’t wait for him to leave.

Literally as soon as that door closed, I locked the door, opened my stash pocket of my suitcase and pulled out my jock, plug, lube and a couple of condoms. Now, I need to say that until last night, I’ve never done anything with a guy before. I’ve been “that guy” on Grindr for forever - just scrolling, chatting, trying to work up the nerve and backing out.

So, last night, I load up Grindr and start scrolling. Get a message from a guy 0 ft away so obviously in my same hotel which is a huge plus. He’s 56, also traveling for work, and sent me some pics of this gorgeous cleancut cock - I’d say about 7 inches and a little on the thicker side. In his pics he was wearing a cock ring and he looked so hard and juicy. I told him it was my first time and I wasn’t sure how I’d fair taking a cock on the bigger side for my first time, and he assured me we would only do what felt comfortable to me. He instructed me to leave the door open/cracked, lay on the bed face down in my jock strap, and he would do the rest.

So, I laid down and told him my room number. My heart was absolutely pounding. I actually started shaking like I had the chills which I’m guessing was just adrenaline or something. I almost jumped up and said no thanks I changed my mind when I heard that door open but I just laid there, frozen. I heard him get undressed and heard the sound of what sounded like him popping a cap to a bottle. I glanced back and he had brought some coconut oil with him. New for me but let me tell you, I’ll be buying some when I get back home, ha!

He started to give me a massage and I just felt all my stress melt away. It actually felt so fucking good. I was getting more and more turned on the more he rubbed, and almost came when he crawled on the bed and straddled my ass. I could feel his cock between my cheeks as he continued to rub my back. I couldn’t help myself…I started lifting my ass into his cock and almost squirming for him to keep going. He started to kiss the back of my neck and worked his way down my back. When his tongue touched my hole for the first time…..I knew something flipped inside of me. I’m not a “small guy” by any means. I’m 6’2 180 and very fit, but in that moment it was like I was a 5’3 120 lb femboy just dying to get fucked. He fingered me for a minute which I actually wasn’t too into, it just didn’t feel like I thought. But…after that, he put a huge dollop of oil on my ass and I heard him rubbing his cock. He started saying “Good boy, you ready for daddy’s cock?” And I was just moaning “mmhmm” lol…didn’t know what to say.

I felt the pressure of his cock on my hole and what felt like the tip go in. He told me to relax and try to open up for him but it was like I was quenching involuntarily. He just left it like that for a minute or so but eventually I felt everything sort of relax and he slowly started pushing it in more. It honestly didn’t hurt at all, but it didn’t feel “good” is the way I’d describe it. After a few minutes he was stroking pretty consistently and all of a sudden it felt fucking amazing. I started moaning like a cock drunk slut and telling him to fuck me. It was so hot and felt so good, I was more than surprised. I was on all fours at this point and felt like I was getting close to cumming, but he reached around and literally as soon as he touched my cock I came more than I have ever cum in my life. He lifted me towards him and was kissing the side of my neck and I was in heaven. He said he was gonna cum and I started slamming my ass back into him. We fell forward and he pinned me down and came in me.

It was honestly amazing. Definitely felt weird down there afterwards but I guess that’s normal? I’m just happy he was very nice and respectful - I couldn’t have asked for a better first time. I would say that I am planning to go again tonight, but my ass feels pretty sore, haha. Anyways, thanks for reading.

I normally consider myself a straight man not attracted to men but fot a bit now trans/femboy/sissies have really turned me on and its awakened a desire in me to bottom for one. .It just sounds so hot and it. Idk if this is what im becoming or just something to get me off. I guess I just had to say it somewhere get it off my chest. Anyone else been in this position?

So wife and I started playing with others recently. I also came out to her as bi. Being the best wife ever she was not only cool with it but into it.
We decided to try and find another guy to play with. The first few went ok. Nothing bad but just enough to get our feet wet. All the guys were cool with oral but never into topping.
Fast forward and we met with a guy and I finally got to get fucked.
He had me strip, get on my knees and suck him hard.
Yes my wife was there and yes she was right next to me helping.
As soon as he was ready he bent me over.
(So I use but plugs and get pegged now and then. But I am tight and it’s always a fight to penetrate me.i have not been fucked by another man since my teens.)
I say that because as soon as I felt the tip of his cock rubbing against my hole I was worried it would hurt so bad.
I was so wrong, feeling his cock stretch me then slide in balls deep felt like pure bliss. I got to look my wife in the eyes while being penetrated. She was making sure to work my cock for me and tell me how fucking hot it was watching me get used.
He fucked me good, hard, and deep. I could not get enough. I did not want him to stop. I wanted to try every position and keep getting fucked all night. I forgot how good it is to feel a big cock sliding all the way inside you. Then having their balls smack you knowing they can’t get any deeper. I WANT MORE!!!!!

Will try to make this as short as possible hehe
100% true I gain nothing from lying.

So not too long ago I was flirting with someone on snapchat and sending vids back n forward. Well I accidentally sent one to my bestfriend/roommate and had no clue up until he sent me a message. We are both 28 years of age.

He basically said yo I just saw something crazy from your snap. My heart sunk I checked and yes I did in fact send him something super frisky and naughty I felt terrible.

Fast forward a day after that he got super curious about if I had toys, more panties, if I mess around with other men, and stuff like that. After filling him in and telling him yes to all that it seemed like he was kinda enjoying hearing how slutty I was behind closed doors.

Over that week he kept mentioning me in panties asking if I was wearing a thong, asking if I liked to get bent over or giving oral stuff like that super curious all in a playful manner.

He even tried to squeeze my butt once after all that and tried to play it off as he was joking. Since then hes definitely gotten closer to my butt whether it’s a playful touch with his foot, passing by hand, mentioning I have a fat butt, or even joking telling me to suck him off.

So now I wonder if he’d be open to messing around or trying something maybe seeing more of me?

Hes super straight, likes to pretend he only likes super smooth clean girls although I’m a super smooth man just have a beard lol.

Those are the events from the last month up until now. Decided to share to see what you guys might think.

Thanks for reading in advance can always DM woth questions or advice hehe :)

10 years ago if you had said that I was addicted to sucking strangers I would have said you were crazy. I was always very heterosexual and tended to be more alpha.

After the divorce I expanded my sexual experiences and acted upon some fantasies that I thought were just fantasies.

But I eventually answered an ad and met a man who owned a tanning salon and got down on my knees for him in one of the booths. As soon as I got down on my knees and had him in my mouth, I was addicted. There is just something about having my hands on a man’s thighs and feeling his hands on the back of my head.

I even had a bad gag reflex but eventually got over that and now I enjoy having my mouth used.

So a while ago I was feeling down after being dumped by my gf. She was the first and at the time only person I’d ever been sexually active with, and I felt pretty unattractive after the breakup. I somehow came to the idea that it would be easier to turn on men on the internet with nudes than it would be women, and I was right.

I started sending pics of my ass, asshole, and dick to strangers I found on twitter, and it really turned me on. I eventually graduated to sending vids of me fingering myself and fucking myself with my razor handle, jerking off, and cumming. And the orgasms were SO GOOD. But at the same time I was never really attracted to them, I never really wanted to see their nudes, though I didn’t mind if they sent them.

This eventually led to me questioning if I was bi, and then deciding I should act on it to find out. I found a man on Reddit who lived nearby and I agreed to meet him for some fun. He had a BBC, and I sucked him off in the woods haha, which I really didn’t mind and kind of enjoyed. I then let him use my ass which was definitely too much too soon and wasn’t great for me, but I did let him cum in my ass which was sort of hot. I wish he’d been more assertive/gropey with me, that would’ve made me enjoy it more I think.

I still really don’t know if I’m actually bi? Like I’ve never seen a man and thought “I’d like to have sex with him” but also having someone be super turned on by me turns me on too, regardless if it’s a man or a woman. But anyway, I had stopped sending any pics or vids on twitter for a while, but I’m back doing it again now and it has me horny 24/7. So yeah, still don’t really know how to define my sexuality but honestly at this point I don’t care, I’m having fun anyway. But shaving is a pain in the ass haha, and I don’t like how it look hairy so I’ll just have to deal with that. Thanks for reading lol

As the title suggests, I'm Christian. Always have been, and my family too. I'm here to talk about my struggles, my "newly" desires, and how I live with them.

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Everything happened very gradually. As a child, I liked girls. I’ve already had a girlfriend, and I’ve been in love several times. However, they never sexually aroused me, and I never looked at them the way I looked at my male classmates, especially their butts. But well, that doesn’t mean anything, right?

Then came high school. Until then, I had never watched pornographic content in my entire life. I was talking with friends at the time who mentioned it, and out of curiosity I tried it. Girls didn’t interest me, but I started looking at images of men. At first it disgusted me—how could anyone accept seeing that, how could two men kiss? Have sex? What heresy. On the other hand, seeing images of muscular, masculine men in tight pants, why not. Then from pants I moved to shorts, then to boxers, then thongs, then nothing at all. Similarly, I went from images to videos of men walking, then twerking, then touching themselves, embracing, kissing, and having sex.

At that point, I knew I had an addiction problem and that what I was doing was wrong, especially since I had plans to start a family and have biological children. Despite that, the temptation kept growing stronger. I started identifying with the one being penetrated. I wanted to try. So I used what I had available: my fingers, a toothbrush, a screwdriver, a plastic magic wand, to pleasure myself anally while imagining being taken by a handsome, hairy, very masculine man. But mind you, it still wasn’t gay! Even when I bought a Njoy, an Aneros, a dildo, and used them obsessively and even wore them in public. It was just a phase, for fun.

Then I wanted to try it for real. So I downloaded a bunch of dating apps, took sexy photos, chatted with people, and flaked on quite a few guys out of fear. Until the day I found the right person to do it with for the first time. It was very pleasant. We kissed passionately, gave each other oral sex, fingered each other, he penetrated me and came inside me. I didn’t even climax myself, but I enjoyed the encounter, until shame caught up with me and I cut everything off and threw away all my objects.

A few weeks/months later, the urges came back. I tried to resist, unsuccessfully. And that led me to this week, when I decided to go all in. I reinstalled all my apps and went hunting. And I succeeded. I met a first guy who wanted me to suck him off while he was working from home, which I gladly did for about thirty minutes. I had the chance to taste his pre-ejaculate, but he didn’t finish because he had to leave for an emergency, which left me unsatisfied. Luckily, later the same day, I managed to find another hookup. A bottom like me, but I decided to try being the top, out of curiosity and desperation to go through with it. Very nice and also inexperienced, we tried a lot of things. That’s when I discovered I’m not a top—I couldn’t get hard to rub against him or penetrate him. But when I was sucking him, I felt my hungry anus pulsing. In the end, I was more of a bottom than he was, and I sucked him until he came in my mouth and I swallowed it all. Honestly, the taste was awful, but the act itself was extremely sexy. So much so that he had to ask me to stop because I kept going with passion.

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And that’s when I understood. Once is a chance, twice is coincidence, three times is a pattern. I am a fucking faggot who likes kissing men, sucking dick, and being fucked until a masculine man cums inside me. It only took 10 years to accept it.

My dreams of starting a family have faded. I have never been, and will never be, sexually aroused by the sight of a girl. And I could never tell her about my past without her being disgusted.

Today, I accept the existence of these desires, even though I do not embrace them. I still believe in the existence of God and remain convinced that giving in to them is wrong. Ideally, I would like to go through a phase where I can slut myself out and become fully satisfied until I grow bored, and then start over from scratch. But even that feels morally wrong to me.

So here I am, in secrecy, getting aroused with strangers and sharing my story with them, because no one around me knows, and no one can ever know.

It's wrong, but feels so good...

I’m about to meet up with an older guy in a couple hours to give my first blowjob. I’m beyond terrified.. I have chickened out so many times and I can’t this time. His Dick is so nice it’s literally making me drool but every time I really think about going over there, I get so scared I literally start shaking. How can I get over this? Any tips on what to do while I’m sucking? I don’t know what to think or do.

I (28m) have pretty dark non-consensual fantasies. I've tried CNC many times with different men, but it just never does anything for me. It's like my brain is incapable of suspending disbelief, it can never let go of the fact that it's all agreed upon, hence it's not really non-consensual.

Obviously they aren't things I can really ever make happen in life for real. So I just forever have this impossible to fulfill desire and it's miserable lol. What's worse is every time I hook up with a dominant or aggressive man it only makes the desire stronger without really quenching the thirst.

So yeah I just need to vent and I also really want to know if there are others like me out there.