Can’t stop
Idk why I can’t stop. I feel like I’m lowkey addicted.
I (25 M) am happily married to my best friend (25 F) she’s honestly the best person I’ve ever known. I truly love her like no other.
But I can’t stop looking for cocks to suck. It started back in high school, I was a virgin and too into porn, I got curious and downloaded Grindr. I invited another guy my age over while my parents were out, I was so scared until he kissed me, after that I surrendered to him. He pushed me down on the couch and took control, kissing and groping me everywhere. I felt so submissive and small under him.
He carried me to my room and laid me down on the bed and stripped me naked. I remember when he finally took his cock out I felt something switch in me. I needed to taste it. I gave him what probably wasn’t a very good bj but I tried to make it slow and teasing and sensual. He asked to fuck me and I said yes but it hurt too much, so I sucked him until he came in my mouth. I learnt then that I don’t like reciprocation, I just want to please.
Anyways off and on since then I will download the app or look on reddit and find a mouthwatering cock to suck off and even get fucked by a couple times, which are stories for another time.
Basically what I’m trying to say is no matter how long I bury that part of me, he always resurfaces, hungry for hung uncut cocks. I can’t ignore it, it just fulfills something inside me