Are these normal symptoms?
I am currently trying to get clean after over 1.5 years abusing Hydromorphone / Dilly everyday. I got clean for several months a year ago only to fall back into it even harder. Fast forward im on and off all of this year relapsing several times with any Opioid pill i can get my hands and feel like ive really been screwing up. My worst bout has been trying Morphine Sulphate that was many years old and worked my way up to causing myself to be deathly sick unable to keep anything in my stomach for a few days straight and since then Ive had worsening what feels like nerve pain in my left thigh especially when under covers at night but it became prevalent throughout the day now so not just restless legs syndrome but similar/worse?
Longest ive gone without this year is around a month before slipping. Any idea how long it can take to reset back to normal? Im currently 2.5 weeks in cold turkey and my emotions are also all over the place as a normally stoic guy ive find myself tearing up at any emotional parts in movies even and short fused like so much is trapped in me and needs released. Any words of motivation/wisdom is helpful.