Starting stripping as an autistic baddie
Hi everyone, I’m a 26-year-old woman, and I will start stripping in a club in a few weeks. I was hired this summer to start my journey at this club, and I’m both really excited and so, so nervous.
First of all, I’m an autistic woman, and I left my job because I couldn’t deal with all of these interactions. It was really hard for me to handle all the rules, schedules, and everything, and it was making me really depressed.
I’m also a dancer, and I’ve already been a sex worker during my studies, but it was online. So I thought a lot before contacting some clubs in France, where I live. I’m not jumping into this overnight. I’ve been seriously considering getting into stripping for about two years now, because I’ve realized that traditional employment just doesn’t work for me.
I’m also fully aware that stripping isn’t some perfect escape route and that it will probably be difficult in its own ways. But I have the feeling that it could work better with the way I am and with my needs, at least when it comes to work.
I’m still quite excited to start this job. In a way, it will allow me to dance regularly, which I’m really happy about. I’m also looking forward to meeting new people, getting out of my little bubble and my city, discovering new places, and getting out of my comfort zone. I’m happy that I’ll mainly be working with other women, and I’m excited to discover a completely new job and do something on my own. It’s not really like me to just leave my city and go somewhere far away to do something like this, so I’m actually quite proud of myself for taking the leap.
But on the other hand, what makes me so nervous is that I have quite a lot of difficulty approaching other people. I’m a bit shy, and I’m usually more comfortable with other people coming to me and chatting with me than the other way around.
So, I’m really nervous because I won’t be working in the city where I live. I’ll actually be working quite far from home, so I’ll have to live in a flat with some other dancers. I’ll be in a city I don’t know, in a flat that isn’t mine, with people I don’t know. I’ll be starting a new job, and I have no clue what it’s going to be like.
I’ll also have to deal with customers, and even though I’m used to dealing with customers because I work in retail, this is obviously not the same type of interaction at all. I’m afraid of becoming completely overwhelmed by them and by the way they might behave towards me.
I’m also a bit nervous about the owner of the club. I’ve heard some good things about him, and apparently he’s not the worst club owner at all, but he’s still a man, and he’s an older man owning a strip club, so I don’t know… It makes me a bit nervous.
And with all of this, even though I’m usually able to go with the flow and I’m able to have nice interactions with people, I’m afraid that I’ll become so overwhelmed that I’ll just completely freeze.
So I wanted to know if some of you are in the same situation as me, or have been in a similar situation. How did you deal with all of this? And do you have any tips?