u/Confessingisgreat

I recently reached the alarming milestone of 120kg. I've been obese for almost all of my life but a few years ago (mainly due to financial issues) I had become what I'd call skinny for the first time in my adult life, most likely around 80-90kg. That was the first time in my life that I felt attractive to anyone and managed to get my first girlfriend. Without really noticing I slowly fattened myself back up to around 100kg whilst in this relationship and when that ended I had the realization that I'd gotten fat again and went on a diet making good progress, managing to briefly drop down to 89kg which I was fairly happy with. I've struggled with my mental health for several months since then and used food to distract myself ending up where I am now at over 120kg. I've been doing much better recently and feel ready to get back on track. I would love to be happy in my body and feel attractive again.

I've tried to start dieting again recently but haven't made progress so I'm going to try posting here monthly (minimum) with the goal of keeping me accountable and prove to myself that it's possible.