I'm so torn between getting back to my best shape or submitting to my feedee desires and getting really fat
Hi, I'm 25M have been in good shape for a few years now and I often get compliments in regards to the way I look. However I have been into the idea of feederism for a solid 10 years and recently this year I've gone on tangents where I consume as many calories as possible for a week. The whole time I'm consuming food I'm super horny and can't stop thinking about how hot my waistline is gonna look if I continue like this. However these tangents tend to end after a heavy post nut clarity. I go back to being afraid of what people will think knowing I let myself go. It seems like I keep trying to go one way or the other to the point I'm not really getting fitter or fatter. I know if I were to commit to this I'd balloon up incredibly fast but I'm worried if I back peddle again it's gonna be a lot harder to lose the weight. What do you guys recommend? Have you had similar experiences?