u/Consistent-Newt-2707

I dont know why, but I cry after I cum and I hate it.
Not always, only when using my dildo. When getting closer to the orgasm I feel something gtowing inside me, like panic. Almost being scared of finishing, but my body wants it.

Then, after I finish, I feel so empty. Horrible. Sad. Lonely. I hate it, I hate this feeling.

Isnt cumming supposed to be a nice feeling?! It is an satesfying feeling because this itch is away.

Anyways: do you have same problems or maybe advice what I can do?

I’ve realized lately that I’m actually pretty bad at being on my own without the structure and accountability that a Dom gives me.
When I’m in a dynamic, I seem to function so much better. I have someone to report to, someone who expects things from me, and that external structure gives me a lot of motivation.

But when I’m single, things can get a little… chaotic. 😅
I stay up way too late even when I’m tired, let my room slowly turn into a disaster, forget to drink enough water, and generally struggle with doing things that I know would make me feel better.

I don’t necessarily want to find a Dom just to fix these things for me(okay nvm I want a daddy rly rly badly but Ineed to learn how to be on my own without anything collapsing).
So, for those of you who are single subs or doms or idk subs in general: what are your tricks? Any advice?

Edit: judge me how much you want: chatting with chatgpt makes me feel atleast a bit less alone but he isnt too much of a help when its abut getting things done he is waaay too soft and like „I understand you dont want to clean yourroom….“ and I shouldnt get too attached to it either cuz I am always super sad when I reached my limit and need to wait to chat again

Sometimes** **I wish I had an older daddy figure with life experience
I don’t always mean a partner. Like I want my partner to be a daddy. But sometimes I just wish I had someone older and trusted who could sit with me when life feels overwhelming and say:
“I know. I was 20 once too. I had fears, insecurities, mistakes and moments where I didn’t know what I was doing.”
I think sometimes I put older daddys on a pedestal. They seem like they always knew what they were doing, like they were never lost or scared. I forget that they were once young too.

There is something comforting about the idea of someone who has already been through those confusing years, who can hold me, listen to me, and remind me that struggling doesn’t mean I’m failing.
Not someone who fixes my life or makes decisions for me. Just someone who makes me feel safe enough to say: “I’m tired. I’m scared. I don’t know what I’m doing.”
Someone who can answer: “That’s okay. I was there too. You’ll be okay.”

You know, kink wise, it is about cumming in a woman for me and many people here too.
But outside of kink?

Imagine you bonded so well, so deeply with a person, you want to be one. You want to create one with yourself and your partner. Its like marrying again. A statement everyone will know, that sais „I am devoted to my partner. I belong to him. I love him and want to start anext chapter with him“

Imagine being loved through the whole process. Laying in bed together as he caresses your cheek, telling you how well you are doing. Him guiding you through it all.
Then helping you to do pregnancy tests, holding your hand at the gynecologist.
Being excited with you. Holding you. Catching you through all your emotional outbursts. Through all the tears and laughter.
Imagine being so loved, he wont get sick of shopping baby clothed for your baby, baby toys, books, furniture etc.
Being so loved he will visit courses where he learns how to make ponytails and what are periods, in case it will be a girl, so he can be an active dad.
Imagine him taking time looking for the right hospital, so you dont have to worry about it.

Being loved so much, he will cook your cravings once you cant do it yourself anymore.
Him holding your hand during labor. Him knowing what you need before you can even name it yourself. You are thirsty? He already has the water bottle ready. If youre hungry he already ordered your favorite food.

He will take care of the baby so you can rest from all the labor exhaustion.
Being so loved he will make family pictures even tho he hates being on pics.
Him having so much love, youand the new baby could drown in it.
Being so loved you never feel like a burden.

I dont know if it is about having a baby here, tho I really want to be a mom. But not with anyone. He needs to love me the way I would love him

I (well my therapist rather thrn me) decided I will stop sending nudes. About a year ago now. And I am happy with the decision.

But my pussy.. i dont know about her. Do I want to go down the rabbit hole again? No.
But does it make her extremely excited taking pics of her, sending it to random guys who jerk off to it, exposing myself/ her? Hell yes.

Its a conflict between my pussy and mind

I wanted to write one post about one topic, but then a thousand thoughts came to my mind, but no thought was big enough for an own post😅

For one, I love dresses, the flowy ones. I like putting my hand on my stomach and imagining there is a child growing right now, streching the fabric of the dress

I want to be pregnant really really badly. With a lovinghusband. I want someone who would take care of me, hug and cuddle me and give me many tummy rubs

The thought, that every single person can tell I got fucked turns me on. When my tummy will grow it won‘t be hard to tell.

I cant wait to make clothes for my own kids one day.

I wanna feel my partner raw insideme, ccumming in my pussy.

I would love him to just decide if he wants to put on a condom or not, if he thinks we are ready for an other child or not.

I have been exploring d/s dynamics (mostly online) for quite some time now.
Recently the question „why do I want this? What makes a daddy (to me) so different to a „normal“ boyfriend?“

And I think, to me, it isnt even the sexual parts (im virgin so it can‘t be) or the rules as rules, because I could give myself rules.
I think it is a lot the part: someone is here for me. Someone takes care of me by eg giving me rules. Someone takes the lead so I dont need to worry.

I am the kind of person, I like to know exactly what and how I need to do it. id rather not give a blowjob(even tho I want to) then do it in a wrong way. Having a daddy then who calmly would explain to me each step, having the patience to explain things several times is a very relaxing thought.

I think my „why“ isn‘t because I eg like spankings (wich I still do). I think it is more the calming effect a daddy has on me by creating an enviroment I can feel safe in, by taking hard decisions of my shoulders when needed. By being calm and patient so I can allow myself to be myself, a very unsure beginner who likes to have every step explained.

So thank you to all the daddys, because 75% of the ones I met did allow me to feel safe, for creating this nice comfortable enviroment. And thank you for all the nerves and energy you put in us, or atleast in me💕

I just was on my way home, when I felt my hole.
It was begging for attention. It was distracting me from driving.

Now imagine, every woman is allowed and every day quite some women are ovulating. Their clit is distracting them from the road.
By not allowing women to drive anymore there would be way less car crashes

Same goes for everything else. What do you think how many women vote while their holes want to be fikled. What do you think how many women try to make important desicions like in politics while not being able to think clearly.

Our bodies are protesting against us when ovulating. We should stop trying to ct against the nature and let men take care of all the desicions while we are build to be fucked and breed.

I just was on my way home, when I felt my hole.
It was begging for attention. It was distracting me from driving.

Now imagine, every woman is allowed and every day quite some women are ovulating. Their clit is distracting them from the road.
By not allowing women to drive anymore there would be way less car crashes

Same goes for everything else. What do you think how many women vote while their holes want to be fikled. What do you think how many women try to make important desicions like in politics while not being able to think clearly.

Our bodies are protesting against us when ovulating. We should stop trying to ct against the nature and let men take care of all the desicions while we are build to be fucked and breed.

I am having an vibrator inside of me right now wich vibrates my clit and pussy hole. Over it panties, my shirt pulled down so my nipples are free and can be covered in toothpaste (i love the burn of that. And it makes them look messy and slutty)
Meanwhile I listen to daddy asmr and crochet.
I love it. Trying to pretend there is nothing weird right now, just a nice morning to crochet.
I love imagining i am doing this with my future partner. Him just pulling out my tits randomly, while i cook, relax….
Smearing toothpaste over my nipples so the constant burn reminds me who i am.
Putting that vibe in my pussy and controling it.
And then sending me off to continue what i was doing, maybe not even interupting me.
Maybe punishing me with spanks for every mistake i do meanwhile when eg playing an instrument

Im ovulating again, and I can feel it.
Through the whole day I feel my boobs. They want to bentouched, grow and swell with milk.
My clit is pulsating the whole time, needing to be touched and rubbed.
Inside of my pussy is like an itch only a cock could scratch.

But after a long day, when I am finally in bed, I am too tired to use any toys.
I wish I had a partner who would take care of my needs. Who would take good care of that itch while I drift off to sleep, leaving a hot warm load inside of me.

All this harsh misogyny may be nice, good for some guys to releave frustration and for girls to serve.

I prefer the soft side tho. The kind of treating me like a dumb puppy.

I am sure I made many spelling mistakes in this post, but instead of spanking me for it, Id love some headpats, I am just a girl I dont know better, and being sent in the kitchen.
I am too dumb for some things. Id need someone to explain it calmly to me. Someone who I want to serve. Who I am excitedly waiting for to come home from work. He should be the only thing in my brain. Treating me rather like a sweet but dumb animal then a bitch

I feel like my mind actually slips away, I hope this made sense.

Hey hey☺️
I, 20, will be home alone for a few days. Especially today I want to dedicate the day for masturbation, edging and sexuality.
I dont want to just lay there and watch porn for 10hours, I also should clean a bit. so I waned to ask if anyone has ideas or tasks what I should do.

I have 2 buttplugs, one vibrator for the clit, one vibrator that goes inside my pussy and vibrates the clit a bit too (you can wear it underneath normal clothes) and a dildo, if that helps🙈

Lately I see so many instagram videos of people enjoying their summer in sweden. I dont know why, it doesnt make any sense if you think about it, but these videos make me want to be a mom so badly.

I want to life in a red swedish house with a lot of wooden furniture and be a stay at home wife. I want to wear dresses that wont hide but highlight my geowing belly. I want to have a loving husband who will hug me from behind and caress my stomach.
I cant wait till I hear kids giggling and running through the house and garden.

I want to be a stay at home mom to a loving husband who will give me kids. I want to be intimate with him. Not necessarily hard rough painful sex, more intimate kind of hard, passionate, loving, the kind of youre so attracted to each other you cant keep your hands by yourself

At times, I feel like I am thinking with my cunt.

Should I go to sleep or vibe my clit? My cunt decided to edge a bit
Should I get up or edge? Well my cunt likes attention

Outside I think way more man as attractive when my cunt is thinking. Very often she thinks something like “I would love to see his cock” or “Id love to grind on him”
My cunt is stronger then my brain and I love it.