So me and my dom have decided to take a break from the dom/sub dynamic for a bit, we are still dating and he says that there’s a high chance we can come back to that dynamic
The reason we’re taking this break is because I’m still recovering from past trauma in past relationships and he just wants to make sure that I feel safe and comfortable and secure in our relationship before going back to that dynamic. I agree and think I need to heal some.
But it’s so hard. It’s not even been a full day and it’s actually, and I’m really not trying to exaggerate, one of the toughest things for me.
We did lots of worship play and he’s put hypnosis on me and now that’s all gone. I dont have to ask him permission for things or get tasks anymore. I just am having a really hard time coping with it.
I have my sub journal but writing in it now feels wrong.
I feel so lost, we’re still together but he doesn’t own me anymore and it’s so hard to deal with that loss of being owned and then all of a sudden out of nowhere not be owned but still be with that partner.
Has anyone gone through something similar and have any tips on it?