u/DarkMoodsK

As I get myself off to all your comments tonight

During the day I have a professional life where I’m the one in charge of others. I’m also involved in various community projects.

But when I’m home, alone, it’s a different story. I get these waves of feeling where I just want someone else to take over. I have people pleaser tendencies, and they sometimes carry over into other areas.

I get these thoughts sometimes, of just waking down the street or at a store or a mall - looking at all the men who walk by. Wondering what they would do and what they would be like if they knew what I was really thinking.

I have a professional image by day, but when I go to conferences I often slip away at night. I’ll book my own hotel room a few blocks from the conference itself and post online ads about wanting casual hook ups.

During a recent conference in St. Louis I fucked five different strangers over the course of the weekend. Can’t seem to ever fully satisfy this constant itch.