I screwed up.
I have an extreme lot going for me. Career wise family everything so I am blessed.
For the past 8 years I have a full-time job.
Monday- Friday. I make decent money. I have a stable family and I take Suboxone 6 mg and 0.5 mg of clonazepam once a day.
Then I thought it was a good idea to just have a little bit of a break and use some alprazolam well it’s been over a week now and I have been taking it every day in all different doses. How do I stop this cycle before it’s too late I see the doctor tomorrow and I will confess.
My family can’t deal with hearing that I relapsed. It’s already suspected once. The guilt is brutal. But it’s easier on everyone. I just deal with this and nip it in the butt.
But even my brain doesn’t even want give up the extra pills. I trust my doctor immensely I’ve known him for 12 years. Were close. I need to find a way where I can go back to just taking clonazepam.
I speak with the doctor tomorrow.
Appreciate any input