first time posting here I'm usually lurking but i need some help, recently finally my triggers have started to work after years of on off listening and its exciting and i want to go deeper.
however, while i was listening to total bimbo wipeout doll the other night i realized something, i have never really made the connection that “Bambi” is different from the “OS” in the sense that they experience different things i have listened to plenty of files that include destroying or suppressing the “OS” but i never made the connection on what that means or implies, all of my time listening to Bambi i always expected for the results of my files to come off as a sort of temporary effect on my old self, different sensations or a altered state of being kind of like being high or something.
when i put my panties/ uniform on “OS” is dumbed down and feels like "Bambi", personality effects, more slutty lower iq ect, but is still there, its just acting like Bambi according to the conditioning, maybe some memories are blocked or whatever but its still "OS" roleplaying Bambi. then the uniform is off and the effects of Bambi stop.
after thinking about this i get how the files are supposed to work, “Bambi” and “OS” are different they feel different things and are separate individuals, not a temporary effect or feelings falling onto one another. i want to you guys for help because I'm not exactly sure how to continue my programing now, i want to go deeper but all of a sudden my entire foundation for BS was uprooted and and i feel like i need to do things differently but I'm not sure how.
some things are confusing now like there are suggestions that make it so the "OS" doesn't remember what "Bambi" does and i don't know if i want that. the whole point of these files is for “me” in an entirety to feel good which is why i like them being a bimbo doll slut is great and it feels good, but how do i make "me" feel good if Bambi is the only one enjoying things and "OS" doesn't remember what happened. what do i do if i still need to function in every day life is "OS" just reduced to a work slave to make "Bambi" cushy? that doesn't sound like it would make "me" happy.
what do all of you do to deal with this? am i thinking about it wrong and how should i start thinking about it? what exactly is the relationship between "Bambi" and "OS"? how do i make sure both feel good while embracing Bambi fully? any help is appreciated by this budding bimbo.