u/DietPepsiSupremacist

And it ruins my day. I wish I could just be a neet. Why should I go to work and pay taxes when I'll never have anything I want out of this life? No romantic prospects, no children, no touch. NOTHING. It should be labeled a disability.

Other people have things to live for. I have nothing.

Also if it's not my first thought, it won't be long before I hear a joke from a coworker, something on social media, or a song with lyrics about it to remind me I'm useless.

I would give up all physical pleasure / sensation to be a bigger size. To be adequate enough to get in a relationship. 34 years old never even had a hug. It's reallllllly getting unbearable at this point.

I don't give a shit about my pleasure at all. I just want a woman who would actually desire me and not resent/cheat on me because I'm not enough.

I've considered therapy, even though I'm extremely skeptical it would help. I'd be willing to try it with an open mind.

Has anyone had positive results with therapy for this issue? As a very introspective person, I struggle to imagine a therapist saying anything I haven't already read or thought about a thousand times..

That said, my issues are somewhat tied to childhood, so maybe there's unresolved trauma worth addressing.

At the end of the day, it feels like a binary choice:

Either fully accept that women will likely see me as lesser, that I'll never be genuinely sexually desired, and that any relationship will involve settling, repeated rejection, and the risk of being left for someone better.
OR withdraw completely, stop complaining, and live without the family, relationship, romance, and children I want.