u/Different_Body1797

what would happen if i go to a bar and go in the mens restroom and get on my knees? i kind of want to try it

send me rape threats or send me your favorite rape and gangrape porn titles. my usuals aren't making me squirt right now. i need something new.

i feel like i have a problem. if you haven't read my previous.. here it is
https://www.reddit.com/r/RapekinkOpen/s/SCBt5Z2Cec

soooo i basically baited. i posted in the same hookup thread that got me raped that i wanted to give a bj. i did mention i only wanted to give head no sex. but tbh i was hoping i would get taken advantage of. i wanted to get raped. idk ever since i got raped i've been sooo hypersexual. craving it. watching rape porn and using my vibrator every chance i get. so anyway last night during a session of playing with myself i got so horny that i made a post in my city's local hook up sub. of course i got several hits right away which made it challenging to choose. one user stuck out because he asked me if i like cnc. i said yes but just a bj tn. we start messaging back & forth on here. he told me he's asian which turned me on so much. if you watch rape porn then you know javs are some of the best. jav porn is always so dirty and pervy i love it. so anyway i kept telling him just a bj and i made up every excuse as to why i didn't wanna have sex. i didn't shave; he says he likes hair. im nervous; he said he'll force himself on me so it can feel real. basically for every excuse he had a rebuttal. i stood firm on just a nude bj in our messages but of course in my mind i want him to take it. so we decide on me leaving my door unlocked and putting a blindfold on. i did it. before he got to my home i almost chickened out twice. i thought about just standing him up. stop replying once he says he's 5 mins away or something but my cunt wouldn't let me.

so there i am on my knees in my bedroom, in the dark with my blindfold on waiting on him to come in. he took a while to get there and i kept taking off the blindfold and getting paranoid. then i heard my front door open and slipped my blindfold back down. sat in a sexy position on my knees. chest perked up so he can grope my tits and my mouth open.

i hear him come in and the sound of him dropping his pants turns me on so much. then he puts a finger in my mouth. his finger tasted like candy. jolly rancher or something. then he guided my head to his cock and i was very turned on when he started to fuck my face. he's on the smaller side i'd say like 5.5 inches but it felt so good in my mouth. his cock tasted like the candy flavor too. idk what that was about? maybe he ate something and stroked himself on the way here or something. but anyway he was fucking my throat very rough and forcing me to take it all. it felt good and i loved it. he also slapped my face a little. hearing him moan and his heavy breathing was the best part for me. he started groping my tits and then touched my pussy. then he pulled me up from my knees to the bed and started to spread my legs. i started to resist saying no just a bj and he slapped me but didnt say anything. he just started fucking me. it felt good at first but then it didnt.. while he was fucking me idk something kicked in and i didn't like what was happening anymore. tbh maybe it's because he was small. he felt good in my mouth but i need at least 6 inches so i got kinda dry and i asked him to stop. he did stop but he kept groping me and that's when i started to feel really dirty. not the good kind of dirty. i got kinda disgusted with myself. he started to go down on me and i didn't like that either and asked him can we just stop and will he please leave. at first he didnt want to but then he agreed. he kept rubbing me though and asking me questions before he left. idk i was turned on at first but then i got turned off. and after he left i cried. like full on sobbed for a few minutes before i went to sleep. i felt ashamed and like a whore.

now it's 4:30 am and im horny again. watching rape porn and thinking about last night getting turned on. it was really hot being blindfolded and having a stranger use my mouth. i think i like the thrill of the danger which i know isn't good. and if his cock was bigger i probably would have let him use my other holes instead of asking him to leave. now im contemplating making another post and trying again with someone else but i know that will be dangerous so im just gonna play with my clit to the memory and fantasize about a hotter version in my head until i squirt all over my bed.

thanks for reading if you read this far.

im up and im horny. i wanna give a bj with my bonnet on without being judged lol

OKC. Group play only

i wonder will i ever feel normal? will i ever be able to get off to normal loving sex. have a healthy relationship? will i always want to be forced and dominated? idk. i stopped my contact with the guy from discord who raped me. but then i got on hookup apps to sext other guys. then deleted my profile after i came. im thinking about finding a therapist. i can feel myself slipping deeper and deeper. and i honestly don't want to put myself in a situation that i know i'll regret. or something i cant come back from. and i always feel bad after i cum to all the dirty sexting. kind of like when some people watch taboo porn and afterwards are like "tf did i just watch?"

a few days ago i wrote about my experience and how i was raped by someone i met on reddit. i met them through a nsfw hook up sub. we both expressed our kinks. i of course have a rape kink because of my past trauma. everything was fine for a while until it wasn't. long story short i was cat fished. which makes me wonder is this considered rape or do i deserve it since i asked for it? we had exchanged pics and he is not the guy from the pics. a completely different ethnicity and everything. im confused with my own emotions. on one hand it was hot. i came a lot as he was fucking me and that feeling of being manipulated and tricked.. idk that just turns me on even more. but i also still feel fear and violated. i still can't wrap my head around why he had to pretend to be someone else..? maybe that's part of the kink for him. he has my address and he took my keys. we've still been messaging each other. i consented in our messages because i do like cnc. i also enjoy the way he degrades me and things he says he will do to me. i tell him i want it. i know i should probably cut him off but im addicted to the feeling? idk this was my first cnc experience. im just conflicted i guess. i mean i consented to everything. i did enjoy the sex. i orgasmed.. he's said he's coming back with more guys which idk if i believe he'll be back with more guys. i do believe he'll be back himself to rape me again.. im kinda scared that he'll read this and really punish me. that's why i deleted my other account and my original post detailing what happened. even though im on a different account he'll probably still know it's me based on the details.. im going to put the details of what originally happened below. i did receive requests to share our chats on my other account before i deleted it so if you still want to see i will share that.

ORIGINAL POST:

i have a huge rape kink from being raped in my past. for about a year i've been on reddit in multiple subs about cnc. i've always wanted to try it but never had a partner to try it with. long story short i would make posts on the subreddits then chicken out. but one day i made a post and a guy started messaging me. this anonymous guy was "perfect" like he chatted me up in the best way. teasing me through messages.. getting me soaked. we exchanged messages for a few days then he convinced me to chat on discord. that was my first mistake. i know i shouldn't have but i was so horny and not thinking. so i added him. from my actual account. he started chatting me up again. saying all the right dirty things to get me going again. he used my posts against me. he knew what to say based on my posts. to get me to let my guard down. we chatted for about 3-4 months before last night. the chatting lasted so long because i would always talk about meeting up then chicken out and stop replying. he never said anything about it when i came back and messaged him again. we just picked back up where we left off. i would always go chat with him while playing with myself because i loved the dirty messages he would send. he sent me pics. i sent pics and videos back. he found my instagram because i have everything connected. i know i know. please don't judge me too harshly... he would talk about black mailing me but i think that was part of the role play. idk. he hasn't done it. or hasn't done it yet i should say.

welll last night i finally decided to go for it. i started to trust this anonymous person. (in retrospect i understand everything i did was really dumb on my part.) because we exchanged pics and even though he was really dirty in the messages he made it clear he wouldn't go too far. we would use safe words. so anyway we make plans to meet up. he talks to me in a such way he could convince me to do almost anything. idk how to explain it. but he asks for my address. at first i just give him general area. we keep chatting and he keeps asking. not in annoying way just like every few messages he reminds me that all he needs is my address and he'll make my cnc fantasy come true. after a while i send my address. i could blame it on the alcohol, but i hadn't really drank that much. just a little to calm my nerves. but anyway he tells me to leave the door unlocked. i say no at first. we keep chatting and i get up and do it. i tell him where my bedroom is. he says he'll be there in 20.

all im wearing is my nightie. no bra, no panties. playing with my vibrator waiting for him to come. i hear my front door open and i panic a bit. and in he walks. he closes my bedroom door. immediately unbuckles his belt, unzips his pants and out springs his rock hard cock. him: "you ready bitch?" me "omg, wait no?!. who are YOU?!" you aren't the guy from the pics!! what is this?"
he's already pulling me by hips to enter me. and he does hard and deep. he wasn't the guy from the pics. my mind is spinning. im in literal shock and fear as he's pounding me. thrusting in me telling how much of a stupid needy bitch i am. making fun of me for giving my address. doing everything he asked without even knowing who he was. im soaking wet and he's thrusting in me like he hates me. i feel every inch in my stomach. im still trying to ask questions while he's using me. i keep asking where is the guy?? why? like wait. he pushes my head into my mattress to shut me up. smack my ass and tell me he's going to cum deep inside me. i start panicking and begging him please don't. im not on birth control. idk who you are, you're not the guy from the pics. are you even clean?! he doesn't care about my protests. he held me down and came deep inside me. he only paused for a second and then kept thrusting to make sure it stays inside.

i thought it was over.. no. he pulled me by my hair and dragged me to my knees. he slapped me so hard my glasses went lopsided. he took them off (the only nice thing he did) and stuffed his dick in my mouth. i though it would be soft after cumming but no. he throat fucked me so hard. he kept touching the back of my throat and then holding it there while i struggled to breath. he laughed and spit on me and continued to abuse my throat for about 8 mins. then he let up a bit before slapping me again, pulling me up by my hair and bending me over again. he started pounding me again. it felt like he was going deeper than before. maybe he was harder now? he told me to "get used to this bitch, it's gonna be a long night for you. you gave me your address. i know where you live. im gonna come back and use you as much as i want. maybe i'll start renting your holes to other guys. make money off you. you stupid slut" he kept pounding me and then i came. he started laughing again calling me a whore and telling me im his. "oh? hearing you're going to be used by different guys against your will made you cum?" " or is it that you'll never know when im watching you waiting to come rape you again" he called me a stupid slut then came in me again. again, he only paused for a second and kept thrusting to work it in.

then he flipped me on my back. still thrusting, now playing with my tits forcing me to look up at him. telling me he knew i liked it. he said his friend is in the car and he should call him up to come use me too. i shook my head and pleaded no. he came in me again. this time he put all his body weight on me when he came and he stopped thrusting. i could feel his dick pulsing. he pulled out and grabbed my vibrator and put it on my clit then he slapped my pussy with his dick a few time. he flipped me back over and started pounding again. "i told you slut, im going to use you all night" i was in a mix of whimpering and moaning at this point. he started to rub my ass and asked me if im an anal virgin. i told him i only ever tried a butt plug and once tried to enter with a dildo but i couldn't. please don't put it in my ass. he stopped thrusting and i thought he was going to shove his dick in my ass. but he didn't he told me to get the dildo. i panicked thinking he was gonna dp me with or something. i started saying no and i dont want to. he pulled me up and pushed me against my wall. he slapped me and choked me. he got really aggressive and told me to get the fucking dildo. he yolked me up so hard i was in the air a little. like on my tippy toes. i could barley get out the yes sir.
then he released me while i went into my closet and grabbed the dildo. he slapped me again and shoved it in my mouth. i was uncomfortable with that but i was grateful because i thought that was all he wanted. silly me. he was just using my mouth as lube.

he rammed the dildo in my mouth pushing it all the way back to my throat and he held it there so my mouth would create a lot of spit. then he pushed me face first on my bed, pulled my hips up and started trying to push the dildo in. i immediately started begging him no to, squirming and crying. he whispered harshly in my ear to "relax right now or im going to shove it in" i literally froze and tried to relax as much as i could. he was trying to push the dildo in gently now. i was so tight. like closed fist tight. it was not budging but he kept pushing. i think he started to get the tip because i felt like i was about to start ripping. like idk how to explain what i felt but it was terrible and i begged him to stop and he did. he flipped me back over and grabbed my vibrator again and started playing with my pussy. then he shoved the dildo in my mouth to shut me up and he started fucking me. the dildo in mouth, vibrator on clit and dick pounding me made me squirt all over my bed. i cant really say how many more times he came in me or how long it lasted it after. i kinda faded away. like in and out.

i woke up this afternoon and im so stupid i want it again. im still really confused about why a different guy showed up im so confused on where all the pics came from of the first guy i thought i was talking to.. is he an actual guy or..? or was this guy just using photos from someones reddit account or something. idk that is weird to me. but being used like that..? by a literal stranger. idk i have a mix of emotions. things could've went way worse. and now im kinda scared to go outside and stuff because he has my address. and i wonder was he serious about sending different guys here to rape me. i really really messed up but im also turned on. and im also worried about stds and pregnancy. he said he was snipped and he was clean. but i dont believe that. im going to get tested and delete my discord before i do something stupid again. im gonna get tested and im trying to get a plan b now