Cuckolding, but in an ENM side relationship
I am a Domme with a switch sub FWB for years now who’s very into the idea of cuckolding. He’s married in an open relationship, but always wants to hear about my lovers and talk about how he wants me to cuck him.
There was a period where I thought maybe he was interested in actually having a relationship with me, and during that period this became a huge focus of our interactions. Nothing in person, but a constant stream of foreplay about it. But then some things happened that made it clear that we are just friends, and it feels fake when we talk about it now.
Fantasizing about acts I may never do, like a gangbang, feels different than fantasizing about a relationship I don’t have with someone and at the heart of cuckolding is a relationship. I really struggle and dislike fantasizing about a relationship I don’t have with someone. I feel like a stand in for someone else that he actually wants this with, because there’s no real relationship commitment here to subvert. I do know he values me and likes me, but cuckolding feels like it requires more to meet that emotional bar. Whenever I bring it up, I get confusing answers.
Can anyone here reflect on their own experiences or desires from either side in this type of situation? I don’t know if I need to set a boundary that this kink is off limits for us to interact about or find another way to enjoy it in this dynamic.