So glad I found this….sub. (ba dm tss)
Anyways, so I’m in a relationship with a partner, A, who is also submissive. I guess you could call me somewhat of a switch or so since I don’t take a submissive role in that relationship and treat him as a human partner in a relationship.
However, we are open, and I have found someone, B, who I would like to be submissive to. B and I have hung out and had sex before, and I’m becoming a bit obsessed with this person and putting them on a pedestal. I just recently found out worship kinks are a thing, and I think that’s the dynamic I want.
The issue is that the dynamic I am used to with past relationships involved getting used or discarded or treated as less than in some ways. I didn’t know what worship was but I was already doing it in those dynamics…and a part of me didn’t fully hate (read: loved) being used or hurt. I am worried that any relationship that is based on treating someone like that might end up being toxic, and I don’t want to risk my relationship with A by going down a potentially toxic rabbit hole with B.
I’m asking for tips on how to engage in a worship kink with B without jeopardizing my future with A. For context, A is is not currently jealous of B and was the one to suggest an open relationship.
Should I ask B if he would mind being worshipped/if he would want to engage in kink? Should I maybe talk to a therapist about how to manage why I desire to be hurt? Should I just keep having vanilla sex w B instead of worship? Or should I give up completely and focus on my rel w A?