u/Distinct_Frame2626

i’ve always been into kink/bdsm but as i’m trying and getting exposed to more intense things, i realize again and again i haven’t come close to finding my limits. that terrifies me. particularly with pain. it’s become something i use to quiet my mind in an extent i never thought id have. i need it to feel whole and sane. i do carry a lot of responsibility and stress but i go haywire without it. i feel like there’s something deeply wrong with my brain to NEED it like that. it’s scary. anyone else in the same boat? how do you digest it?