I hate admitting that this is who I am now.
[TW: Mention of: Erotic Asphyxiation, Kidnapping, Power Exchange,]
Hi there,
I’m made to write here because if I don’t I don’t get to cum or I have to beg a real feminist if I can cum. As I’m writing this my cheeks are flushed with heat and I feel my heart beating a little faster.
I don’t want to do this, admit this let alone for the world to see me like this. I used to never follow commands because “I’m here for my own entertainment and to cum. WHY would I not cum because some random fuck told me not to?”. I’d play along, say I didn’t and then happily made myself in fact cum. It was great! Because who doesn’t love an orgasm.
Then, few days ago I got a message in my inbox asking me if perhaps I was a dom. I was taken aback as nothing in my fucking profile would indicate that. I am a switch but mostly go for the submissive role. He noticed something in my writing where he got a feeling I might be. I love a pathetic mess at my feet, begging, whimpering and needing me more than air because theres something refraining it from reaching his lungs. So yes, I do but I don’t entertain it that much as I know how to be a pathetic mess begging for air better.
This man submitted to me and made me feel powerful and strong. I riled in it. I love it. I then got home from work, was in my sleepy mood and asked if he’d kidnap me so I didn’t have to deal with work tomorrow. Guess I pressed too many buttons with that because here I am actually following orders for once and letting someone dominate my day without really being near me. It makes me soaking fucking wet. It makes me hot and bothered thinking about it and I’ve turned into a pathetic begging mess calling him daddy when I whine and needing more attention from him. I want to please him. I want him to praise me. I want him to make me feel good. I want to moan for him. He won’t let me take back control easily and it’s fueling something inside me that hasn’t been fueled before. This push and pull. This fight and how I’m out dominated every time. I’m his but he’s not fully mine until I can press all his buttons to make him submit to me again. I want it. I want it so badly it has my mind occupied during the day of how I can do this. I want to be a better domme so I can have my power back because as things stand now? I’m a pathetic fucking excuse of a feminist who was really seen and it turned me into a mess I haven’t been before.
I’m a handful of attitude. I have a big and sometimes foul mouth but he silenced me in a way I never expected. I’m a brat and a little menace but he deals with all of that without any issue.
Please, daddy. Please let me cum. Everyone can see I’m a pathetic mess now. Please?