FINALLY! 🤭
For years now, I have wanted to indulge in the ABDL community. I have been nervous about purchasing a set of Adult Diapers, for fear of them being found and being thought of as a freak.
A couple months ago I gave in and finally purchased my first package of Diapers, ABU’s “PeekABUs”. To say it was a struggle at first would be an understatement. I could not get the Diapers to fit right. I had trouble getting them on, I’d mess the tape up, tear them, etc. Out of the 9 I tried, I probably was only able to put 3 somewhat correctly on, so I just felt down. I haven’t been wanting to just wear the Diaper, I’ve been wanting to actually use them as well, and just couldn’t find any success. I’d push and push, and nothing but a little tinkle, if that. I have messed a couple of times. And while that is great, and makes me feel naughty hehe, the feeling of just letting go and urinating freely is the feeling I have been striving for.
I have been saving 1 last Diaper for weeks, my favorite of the designs, the Raccoon. I was nervous of trying that one and ruining it again then I would be out of luck. Well, today I decided that tonight would be the night. I went to the store and purchased 2-2 Liters of Diet Coke and finished them off throughout the day, I also ate a large dinner. I’d been holding in all evening, and I went to put my last Diaper in my stash on. The fit wasn’t perfect, but it held together pretty well. Right away I really had to pee, I was sure this was going to be the moment, but still, nothing would come out. I started getting frustrated, once again I pushed and pushed and pushed, a few drops here and there, but not much. I came to terms with the idea that I just couldn’t make it happen, and said that I would just enjoy the evening playing Video Games with at least the comfort of being in a Diaper. Then just a little later, I stood up…and it happened! Like turning on a faucet, without any extra pushing, my entire bladder just let go and completely filled my diaper. It felt absolutely incredible, just like I hoped it would. And that’s not all, with a bladder full of 4 Liters of Diet Coke, I urinated smoothly 3 more times throughout the night, safe to say my Diaper had some weight, and I was a bit soggy. To finish things off, I messed one more time before cleaning up. When I took my diaper off, I was truly amazed by how heavy it was, I was proud and it felt great.
Of course I had to have this breakthrough with the last Diaper I have in my stash. To be honest, I don’t know when or if I will be purchasing another case anytime soon, the fear of them being found just weighs on me far too much. But all in all, I am so happy with how my experience turned out tonight, as this was a feeling I have been longing for for quite some time, and it was better than I could have imagined! 🩵🤍🩷