u/Dollycat99

How big would you get!? I'm imagining a dream world, where poverty doesn't exist, in-home care and mobility aids are easily pursued by all, health issues can easily be treated etc.

I'd love to be at least 350lbs, but that's only the beginning 🤭 Eventually I would break all of the furniture, then someday become so fat that I'd just rather not wear clothes at all. I would need a custom home, built for someone of my size 😵‍💫 I would order in so often that every restaurant in my city would know each order by heart.. just devote my entire life to getting as fat as possible

Currently at the Hospital (just for chronic illness stuff), and it’s honestly been so dreamy having meals brought to me 😵‍💫 I also asked my Dr to add a Boost to my breakfast (which is huge as is lol), and somehow there was a misunderstanding... so now I’ve been getting 2 or 3 bottles a day 💘 They’re 330+ calories each, in addition to the big meals.

Thankfully the food here is pretty good! We had a steak dinner the other night, yesterday it was Lasagna. Some of the sides are pretty bland, like veggies or white rice. But there’s a huuge drawer of butter packets in the fridge, plus unlimited salt and pepper 🤭 so that helps.

And I keep hoarding as much packaged food in my room as possible lol. Which has been especially nice, cause the kitchen is closed at night 💔 so even if I wake up and want a snack, I can just reach into my nightstand drawer and have one :P The shortbread cookies are my favourite so far~ Apparently I’ve eaten enough that another box had to be ordered 😅

It was so hot being weighed when I got here, hopefully they’ll want to do it again soon. I’m staying indefinitely, so fingers crossed I gain some weight 💫 ideally as much as possible hehe

But how could I be? Fat bodies turn me on, so does Feedism!

Sure all my friends and family are Fatphobic, and I don’t try to educate or correct them. And If they aren’t confirmed to be Fatphobic, I fear they are. I prioritize other peoples approval over my own values… but that’s unrelated to Fatphobia. I would love to have a Feedee of my own, so I’m one of the good ones. It’s not like I’m being unfair or inappropriate!

Well, no.. I wouldn’t date a Feedee or Fat person publicly.. like go on dates, introduce them to anyone, or commit in any way beyond what benefits me. But again, it’s just because I don’t know how other people would respond. That, or a fear of commitment.

But that’s normal, right? To associate being Fat with something negative? And having a hard time defending fat people. Feeling so much shame that I delete my account and remake it again.. but tons of people do that here! Plus It’s just the internet, it isn’t really that deep.

And It’s not like I need therapy. I can’t even imagine pursuing it anyways, wouldn’t the therapist be judgmental, too?

Plus I find fat bodies more beautiful than thin ones!! So I definitely can’t be Fatphobic. It’s honestly a lot of what I think about, too, Fat bodies. Thin people getting big, fat people getting bigger. I interact with Fatness all the time sexually, so obviously I’m in the clear, right? I value Fat people for sure.

Fat friends? Reading Pro Fat-Liberation literature? Wanting equity for Fat People, completely separate from sexual desire? Educating myself on what they go through everyday, and/or the history of these topics?

Like wholeheartedly believing they deserve the same quality of life that people in smaller bodies get??

Idk, I just don’t really get how any of that is relevant or necessary… I don’t like getting into Politics.

Besides, if you could feel how turned on I get, you definitely wouldn’t think that I am Fatphobic.