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I'll try to keep this as short as I can. There's a lot though. 25 years ago I was involved with a man for 2 years, we were in love. We were also a lot younger and priorities weren't what they should have been as we were both married at the time. We both ended up getting divorced and I got a taste of freedom and pushed him away. We would bump into each other occasionally and I was happy about that. 11 years ago he started showing up at my job (retail) married again and another kid. He told me that I was the love of his life and always considered me the one that got away. I was at that time going through a really bad breakup with an alcoholic that did his best to ruin my life. I went ahead and gave him my email address and he would email me and ask what times I was working and he would try to stop in and see me. I work super early and get off early so it didn't work out for him to stop in and eventually the emails stopped, which given that he was remarried with a kid, it was probably for the best. I have been with a man 9 years older than me, since shortly after I ended things with the first guy. 6 years ago the man I've been with and I finally got married. The last almost 3 years of our 6 year marriage, has been sexless. Due to all kinds of issues with him enabling his adult children as well as his complete lack of hygiene, I have fallen completely out of love with my husband and have no attraction to him at all and have been struggling with what to do. In June I received an email from my love from 25 years ago, apparently he had been locked out of that email account but has been trying to restore it and he finally did. So he sends me an email, hey stranger! I could tell he was still in love with me, but was still very drawn to him. It didn't take long for him to admit that he never stopped loving me all these years and he remembers every detail of our 2 year affair, things I didn't remembers till he brought them up. The man still has a box of things I gave him, birthday cards, anniversary, pictures and even the key I gave him that said it was to my heart. I started talking to him without the intention of leaving my husband, I now can't imagine not living without the love I'm getting and feel for this man. There's been so many signs that we have both seen and witnessed that have drawn us closer. I am honestly blown away that this man has been in love with me for 25 years and has attempted to move on, but hasn't. I know life is a series of choices and what road will this choice lead to, but I think 25 years ago I made a huge mistake in pushing this man away.