Convince me, please (Heroin).
I have dabbled with opiates since i was 18 among most things (hard pill use, psych ward extent type shit), was a lost boy and still am to some degree, although i have slightly found my way and am back in education, studying science at uni. Still struggle a lot with substances, more so just staying off them but i guess the pattern i see for myself is that using substances is a path in of itself for me (self destructive). This is why i stay the "sober path" although using is always on my mind, It's never a particular substance, mainly anything that makes me feel in an altered state. I am not a heavy user, although recently, H really quiets everything down. I don't wish to live like this nor be an addict. Forgive me if this is the wrong space to vent. I have a lack of guidance other than family. Please help me understand how much harm I'm really doing for myself.