Really need some help
I (29m) have been talking to a girl on a dating app for weeks now and am very much into her. It seems mutual because she has talked about our future on several occasions and we have a date planned for next weekend. The catch is that even though I am 29 and conventionally attractive I’ve never been in a real relationship and am so fucking nervous. She seems like the “one.” We agree on most issues religiously, politically and philosophically. The issue is that I am not well endowed at all. I actually have a very thin penis and am incredibly ashamed of it. I’ve even been suicidal in the past because of it. I’ve had several women in the past be interested in being fwb but it’s never lasted more than even two weeks because of it. To be more detailed, I literally cannot stretch a vagina. Even I don’t feel anything, partly because I had a major porn addiction for several years and gave myself death grip and have never fully healed. I’m absolutely terrified that she’s going to leave me right after we have sex for the first time. I guess I am posting here partially to vent because this is incredibly painful for me and I would like some advice on how can I please someone even with a pencil dick. If she does end up leaving me for it I honestly might kill myself.