[41F4M] #online #EST… Told myself I wouldn’t do this again 🤦♀️
Unfortunately getting that itch again… of starting something exciting with someone new. Knowing damn well that one of us will slow-fade or full on ghost into nothingness in just a few short weeks.
I will list all my red flags at first, so hopefully that will deter a lot of people off the bat:
🚩 I shut down instead of open up (especially after I get to know someone a bit, at first I’m usually just word vomiting everything on the table)
🚩 My fear of failure is larger than fear of rejection. I’ll first go to “I should have known better” rather than try to learn from my mistakes
🚩 I struggle to express my needs. I might not have a very good understanding of what it is I need myself, therefore it is difficult for others to know what it is they should be doing
🚩 I’m more afraid of being needed than being ignored (avoidant attachment)
Now, some positives about me:
I like fun, I don’t usually reply with one word answers (unless I’m being cross), I have a lot of time to chat especially throughout the day, I’ll send you pics of my cooking, I can maybe make you laugh if you have a similarly shitty sense of humor, aaaaaannndddd… hmm, my face I guess isn’t that horrible to look at.
Some traits I’m usually attracted to: confidence, kindness, independence, that similarly shitty humor… not taking yourself and everything else too seriously, and, well, I do enjoy a bit of horniness.. 👹
Edit ✍️ to add: I’ll most likely respond to ages 25-45ish