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Being a lesbian has zero appeal to me. I wouldnt even consider myself to be one. I dont like the sexual fantasy of two women. And i also dont like "playing" man. I literally wnat to have a real penis (Freud was right I AM JEALOUS) and fuck a girl. In my Imagination it must feel so satisfying. Actually if i could choose i would fuck myself. Its so unfortunate to be born a women. And as a Women i feel sexually aroused by submission. Its very weird.
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19F.
I practise syntribation since i am 6 years old.
My legs are crossed, i put my hand between them and apply a lot of pressure along with heavy muscle tension and breath holding. I notice that i cant cum any other way. This method leads to very intense orgasms, but i was never able to even slithly orgasm in any other way.
I know that its weird as hell and i also feel like this method made my pelvic floor extremly tight. I wish i could masturbate "normal". Is it fixable? And how? Ive done it for 13 years.