Straight and married but wanting a massage from a man
Like the title says, I am married, consider myself straight, have had bi/gay thoughts but never acted on them. I go to the gym regularly often, have a demanding and stressfull job so my muscles get tight and I built up tension in my body.
I have had massages from females in the past focusing on my back and shoulders. The massages were fine but didn't quite do it for me for some reason. I'm now looking at massages given by men as I feel a man has a more firm grip and can relate more to being a man.
I looked up male massage therapists online in my area and found one 30 minutes away from me. He gives neck, shoulders and back massages but also relaxation/full body massages. I messaged him asking what the relaxation/full body massage would look like and if he could focus on my back and shoulders but also massage my legs. I also asked him if i needed to be naked during the massage. He replied that he prefers to massage someone that is naked because there won't be any clothes in the way when massaging. But if I don't feel comfortable I could also just wear my underwear.
Is it weird that I feel somewhat conflicted laying on a massage table naked being massaged by another man while married? I really want a massage though because i've built up quite some tension in my body so I just want to relax. For context, i've never had a massage while being naked by a woman. I don't have the intention on any sexual happening but it has crossed my mind that he could massage near my penis and that I might get an erection.
Would love to hear your opinions!