How to enjoy responsive desire?
I don’t necessarily know if my question is the result I want but I’m just curious. My general disposition is that my brain is running 110% of the time unless I’m doing things that don’t require much thought at all.
I’m the kind of person who can’t shut their brain off and really can only enjoy something unless I don’t have to use critical thinking skills or have to make a decision entirely. I love planning out details for life in general but if I have to make decisions in the moment it can pretty much kill my mood in any capacity.
I guess my main question/thing is wondering how I don’t make myself assume that every touch or intimate gesture will lead to sex. My boyfriend and I kiss/cuddle/compliment each other but my brain automatically assumes that things will lead to intimacy and that kind of puts some pressure on me that also kills any potential for orgasm since I subtlety go into a mindset of how things will work to make sure that my partner enjoys sex.