u/Genkikiwi

I understand that this is not nearly as easy as some might think, and perhaps I’m just overly optimistic. But I have been doing a lot of research and have yet to find any real solutions to reach my eventual transition goal, as I’m hormonally intersex and also have EDS.

I have female sex characteristics, but I have excess, dark terminal hair and a deep (not dropped) voice. EDS causes multiple hairs to grow per follicle, and makes my skin very delicate/stretchy (so I’m wary about surgery). Another thing the EDS causes is joint pain, so while I’m alright presently tending to my body hair (I’ve got to tweeze or nair my face basically every other day), I don’t think I could handle it if I had more than I do now. The body hair makes me very dysphoric.

It’s hard to say because I know it probably isn’t possible, but I want to basically remain as I am now, with equal or less body hair, and with both a vagina and phallus (i.e. large bottom growth, not a large one but certainly over an inch), no testicular implants or anything. I do understand this is probably unrealistic but I’m wondering what my options are. I’m in a tricky situation here in which I was congenitally assigned most all of the ‘masculine’ traits I’d care to ever deal with in one lifetime, but nothing affirming downstairs. I understand there exist things like strapons or packers but I feel extreme upset and dysphoria without a physical organ down there. Obviously I have a clit but it doesn’t erupt much. My goal for it visually reads very much as “really big bottom growth”.

My fiance suggested I get a Folx membership and look into compounded testosterone cream (DHT is not legal in our country) but I’m not sure. I’ve heard DHT is the best for localized growth?? And I don’t even know if something like a metoidioplasty will go down well with EDS. This whole thing is just so confusing and discouraging. I’d like to believe I have a happy future but I don’t even know where to start planning for it. I feel so lost