Do I want nullificcation for the wrong reasons?
I would be lying if I said I don't want to do this for fetish reasons. I like the idea of never needing to worry about whether ill ever have sex, in my perfect world I would want it so I no longer have the privilege of playing with it. I know in some cases you can still keep the glands and nerves so you can actually rub your area so you could still have an orgasm, but it's much more harder to achieve and I actually enjoy the thought of that as well. But mainly I just really enjoy the idea of not having it so I can focus 100 percent on a man without my needs of having my dick getting pleasure.
But I've always been a pleaser. anytime I had sex, it was always about him, never me. This is how I always liked it. I hardly ever got hard when I went down on past partners and my partners even complained about that. but my pleasure solely came from what I was doing for him.
It's kind of hard for me to explain, but I get very good sensations throughout my body and mind from pleasing others sexually with my hole, my mouth, and my hands. Later when it was over I would play with myself thinking about how I pleased him sexually.
Other reasons I want to get rid of is because I masturbate way too much, so much that it just gets in the way of my hobbies and even sometimes work.
Lastly I do have a denial fetish. I really just like the idea of needing to find other ways to get and give pleasure with no way of penetrating anyone or anything.
Sometimes I think I'm just really out of my mind or wanting this, and my list of fetishes are very far out there, but this one is at the top.
I'd love to hear from you.
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