I am looking to be a pillow princess and im looking for this to happen in my town. If you live in my town or super near by that is best case scenario and I hope to find someone out here that wants to do this it am in need of the service badly.
I dont know how to live with myself
Literally could kill myself
I told a guy to wait for me.. cuz i wasn't ready to date.. so technically we weren't together but I loved him more than maybe anyone before and I think thats part of why i did it.. but I pushed him away and treated him terribly..
Slept with 2 guys..
He came back all sweet and not knowing..
And I dont know what to do..
I felt bad about it before I slept with the others but told myself "you're single." Ya that's true..
But if I ever wanted to marry this guy I think its out the window now...
Im mourning but also not even sure what to tell him.
Truly idk how much he liked me but I definitely liked him a lot.. I loved him I know it sounds like BS..
Idk why I did it
EDIT:
Ill get back to yall
You're very kind / helpful and I really really appreciate the help.....