u/IHateSince2001

I scratch it since childhood. So much dead skin comes off. I have lost lots of sensitivity too. It starts itching out of nowhere, like it is so strong that it feels like needles poking it. Sometimes I scratch is so much that i can see red long cracks or cuts at there.

Isoconazole nitrate and Diflucortolone valerate cream helped so so much. I mean itchy gone. White scales didn't though. Btw it looks flattened instead of wrinkly.

I used other antifungal stuff and i guess it helped a bit.

I stopped smoking for like 2 days and it's been easy. Only problem is my productivity has gone dead. Finally, despite my depression, I was having showers, cleaning my room etc. Now it's all gone, I see people say that it's been years and they are still thinking about smoking, still can't be productive, that's number one, that's sucks. I never had much tolerance anyways, it felt good when I smoked, that's number two. I got that dizzy buzz everytime and I FREAKING LOVED IT, I LOVED THE SMELL, I LOVED THE FEELING, I LOVED THAT SLIGHT BLUE TINTED SMOKE I LOVED IT MAN. LIFE FEELS MISSING WITHOUT IT. It was the thing missing all along and despite everything I have quit smoking but some people say that they get fat as a cattle so that would actually kill me if I gained much more weight Im morbid obese already. I mean if I have to sacrifice everything man, I won't do this. Not because of the addiction or something, but some research say that FOR WHOLE FREAKING YEAR the productivity stays lower than smokers. Man, there's no way I'm gonna do this, I FEEL I WAS DENIED, CRITICAL, NEED TO KNOW, INFORMATION! It's not that I can't quit, but is it worth the sacrifice at THIS point in my life? Maybe when I get a job, lose weight, and survive the WW3 I can stop smoking. And last of all, you know those cigs, the ones I smoked? I want you all to know thag Id do it all again. I am not crazy, okay? I know what I did. I know who I am. Any marlboros any camels any winstons that I smoked, I did it, BECAUSE I LIKED IT! HELL I LOVED IT. IM STANDING HERE, IM, IM JUST ITCHING, IM ITCHING TO DO IT AGAIN, AND YOU THINK, YOU THINK YOU ARE GONNA SEND ME TO REHAB? SOME DOCTOR THEY ARE GONNA GET ME TO STOP FROM DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO?! WELL THAT AIN'T HAPPENING, NOT ON MY WATCH! YOU PEOPLE, YOU CALL ME THE SMOKER, AIN'T THAT RIGHT?! THE BIG BAD SMOKER. WELL HERE I AM! YOU WANT IT, YOU GOT IT! I AM THE SMOKER, IM RIGHT HERE! YOU WANT A SMOKE I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU! AND ANYBODY WHO CAME HERE TODAY TO HEAR ME WHINE, TO HEAR ME BEG?! WELL YOU CAN KISS MY ASS! DO YOU HEAR ME? IM GUILTY, YOU HEAR ME?! I'LL SMOKE EVERY ONE OF EM, ILL SMOKE EVERY SINGLE ONE!