Conflicted On What I Want
I am aware that this question has kind of already been answered; the thing is, the responses in those threads (at least from what I can see) don't lead to a single, cohesive conclusion, which is why I’m asking for opinions specifically in the context of my own situation.
Currently, I haven't paid for any escorts. For some time though I’ve been purchasing customs. I have an odd—not necessarily crazy, but strangely specific desire. I won't be explicit with the details; I’ll just say it's content I almost never find online. And when it *does* appear, it's either too short, or it’s combined with extreme shit that I do not enjoy 👎️. So I've been paying creators to fulfill this desire. I’ve had some luck! Others though made dry solos and pretended like they didn't know what I asked for.
I still occasionally buy customs, but a part of me longs to bring this desire to life. For the past few months, I’ve been looking into escorts—for obvious reasons (lack of any IRL community).
But I face another dilemma: I kinda want it to be filmed. Not even for commercial use, just so I can enjoy it later. I’ve search this and another subreddit for answers. SOME have said to just be ready to pay double or more (which I'm 100% okay with). Others, however, say don't even look for escorts and to search for "adult talent agency". It's just that when I search this up for my area I get almost no result, maybe I'm looking on the wrong site?
I genuinely do not mind the cost, I just don't want to make the wrong choice. Do I go for escorts and simply request for it to be filmed, and if so do I ask that at booking or at the date? Or should I go with "adult talent"? Or do I not do either and just keep going for customs?