Fantasizing about sex with a friend
Hi, I’ve been divorced for a while and haven’t dated so my sex life has been non-existent. I have a male friend, he is a few years older, we are both in our 50’s. He is single too and he is actually a handyman which is how we became friends, from him doing work in my home after the divorce.
Anyway, I’m really not attracted to him like I would want to be in a relationship but I must confess I have fantasies about sex. Maybe because he is a male friend and I’m horny. I also wouldn’t know how exactly to initiate the idea. I do feel like he deserves some pussy. We shared a hotel room once in Atlantic City, separate beds. I had the room and he stayed after we hung out one night. He works down there so I offered him to stay so he didn’t have to drive home. When we walked into the room he had a look on his face and I thought maybe he wants some but I didn’t so I just went in the bathroom and then back out to my bed. He didn’t make a pass but I think it was understood that nothing was going to happen. But now I’m thinking maybe I should get a room again and see if he will stay and then I can figure something out. I don’t know, I’m conflicted but also want sex or oral sex at the very least.
Also, do you enjoy getting pointers from porn when out of the loop for a bit like giving a good blow job? I mean I know how to do everything but it’s been a bit and I want to be really enjoyable if something does come about with my friend until I start dating again.