u/KMichelle1313

Long story short I’m a lifelong sissy, but I always straight (mostly) and I am married to a woman. Anyways…

I was always a good looking, muscular guy…not trying to sound pretentious, but I always had girls chasing me. But I was always to scared, especially back in high school. I was a virgin until the end of my senior year, and ironically I married the same girl so she’s the only one I’ve ever been with.

Now the story…twice in my life, I was approached by a couple about going home with them for “fun” both times the girl was hot…but I just couldn’t. Like the idea turned me on, but the reality of it was too much for me…

And once I was approached by a couple who wanted me to get the wife pregnant because they thought I had good genetics…again, hot…but I also turned them down.

That was all when I was younger in my mid 20’s, but I always think back to, what if I would’ve just tried it? Would that have changed anything about the way I am now? Idk…life is weird.

Looking back tho I can see I’ve always had some sort of denial kink…so maybe that’s why? I mean back then I didn’t even know what a cuck was or anything about the lifestyle for that matter.

Just wondering if any other cucks had something similar happen to them…I figured I can’t be the only one???

Life long sissy…been meeting guys on and off for a long time now. Before today it was almost a year since I’d done anything with a guy, I still wear panties all the time, paint my toes etc. But I’m so busy with life I just done have a lot of free time to dress all the way and meet men. Anyways….

So yesterday I figured I’d log back into Grindr, just flirt and see what’s out there. Of course I’m talking with a bunch of guys (I love affirmation from men) and one guy was really close to my work. Like 2 miles away. He said he really wanted to meet me and was practically begging me to come see him so he could use my mouth.

I didn’t have time yesterday but we made tentative plans to meet today. So I finally got some time later in the day I could sneak out for a bit, he didn’t have much time either, but he said we could kiss a little and maybe he would pull his cock out…so I said what the heck.

I just went with what I had on, tight jeans, panties underneath, and I was caged all day already. I did put on some lip gloss and I sprayed my cotton candy body spray on too, just to feel a tad more feminine.

So I parked and he came out to my car (tinted windows) and he was super cute 🥰 super quiet tho, so I broke the ice and slid closer to him, and he leaned in and kissed me. It was nice, we made out a little and I was rubbing his thigh to entice him.

After a few minutes he said…you wanna taste my cock for a few minutes? And he pulled it out…omg it was huge! So I did, I leaned down and gave him a nice slow blow job for about a min, he seemed to like it 🤷🏻‍♀️

I knew he had to leave so I stopped and we made plans to meet again Friday when we both have more time. So he left and I started driving back to work. I went to CK my Grindr when I got back and he f’n blocked me 🤦🏻‍♀️ like wtf

I think it’s cuz I present really masc in my day to day, but I was totally up front about it and he said he didn’t care. Idk, I get it…people get nervous and all but I thought it went really well 🤷🏻‍♀️ he even had his hand on my head while I was blowing him…

Thanks for reading 💜💜💜

Hiii

I just really need to go thru with this…I need to be owned by a real Man and be controlled by him. Stop me from trying to be manly and accept my feminine feelings 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’m posting this before I change my mind and back out again…I’m always here lurking, but I’m always to scared to post 🤦🏻‍♀️