u/Large_Meringue7551

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After experiencing a completely limitless desire to engage with men while using speed, my like fantasies and desires are super embarrassing, and I am like absolutely unable to actually do anything anymore. I did get caught once, but like idk how to just either go back to being more vanilla, grow some balls, or give up.

I wish I could live both lives without one hurting the other, and if I start using I would be destroyed.

Advice?

I mean there’s literally the perfect thing next to me, if I was lit he’d have me mindless and I’d not care one bit. I can’t even stop listening for the door tho, cause with my past everyone I know keeps tabs and I’m sure one person or two could look. Thinking something different. I mean I’d be devastated, and yea. But here we are tho right?

Don’t do drugs. Ruins it. Pre dope me would have been done too

Good looking dude here. Anyone want head on the DL?