u/LazosDeSeda

Salió plan con una amiga, pero yo no se nada de eso y quisiera consejos para sobrellevarlo o pensarlo, gracias.

Nobody has ever seen my breasts except for my family. The thing is, there are times when I can tolerate them, and times when I absolutely hate them. Maybe in these last few months, I've managed to accept them a bit more. Anyway, recently I had a sleepover with a friend who has known me since I was 6. We have the kind of friendship where we can talk about literally anything without filters and with total trust.

​That night, I felt comfortable enough with her because the topic of breasts came up. She had told me before that she had a similar shape, so I felt even more confident showing her mine after she showed me hers, lol. It sounds weird, but who hasn't been overly comfortable with a close friend?

​Her breasts were round and perfect, nothing like mine. When I showed her, her face turned serious and weird, and she yelled, "YOU HAVE GIANT NIPPLES AND VERY TINY BOOBS, YOU'RE MISSING SO MUCH BREAST TISSUE!" "I'VE NEVER SEEN ANY SO FAR APART!" I felt a bit embarrassed and even regretted showing them, I don't know. She said it looked like I had already breastfed. And since I always tell her that I'm super insecure about having a romantic relationship with a man out of fear that he'll judge my breasts or be disgusted by them, she also said, "Now I understand your insecurity about showing yourself naked," but in a mocking tone, as if saying, "if my breasts looked like yours, I'd be insecure too." That's how I took it. Maybe I'm wrong and misinterpreted the situation, I want to believe so. Anyway, she was serious the whole time and didn't look at me like before, just as if I were a fucking weirdo. I texted her, and she’s been really distant/dry. I think I regret doing it. I keep thinking: if a friend who goes through the same thing thought that about my breasts, how would a man feel, when they completely have it in their heads that breasts should be naturally round?

​I just wanted to vent and see what you guys think. Do you think it was just my own insecurity and that's why I misinterpreted the situation? All I know is that I felt vulnerable, super ashamed, and embarrassed of myself. I thought I'd feel better, but I didn't.

​Having this insecurity is honestly so emotionally draining :(