u/Lbethy

This is inspired by discussions that explore how HS can send us all down the taboo rabbit holes.

In most recent times, the most erotic moments for me were not ones that pushed on my boundaries for taboo. They were just moments where something about the experience set off my ultra hyper arousal. I am lucky to have such a responsive body. I appreciate that this isnt something that is attainable for all, its not something attainable for me every time i have sex.

But when i do enter that zone.. fk. Being extremely aroused and able to cum from someone almost touching is crazy. Witnessing how my enjoyment affects the other person

The vanilla vs non vanilla thing for me doesnt really exist because if my mind and body are truly connected and willing.. i dont really even need a touch just the anticipation of it. - - which is why i am incredibly grateful to have ADHD 😅 summer breezes would end me if my brain was not easily distracted.

I know this post has a nsfw vibe. Just if you reply, dont be explicit in that reply so that it doesnt break our rules. I wanted a space for those of us who can sit in the shallow end of the pool forever and still get off. Id like to feel like less of a freak 😅

Mentions sexual assault but post not graphic or particularly about the assault itself.

Im posting here because Im trying to process the context around the assault. Processing the fact that on any other day, I would have consented probably. Ive been in rest stops and public picnic areas before and been approached and its been fine. But I had decided that day to have some more discernment because such behaviour is so risky.

Its like the universe barely let me have a few hours of that but it went fuck you. You created this, now you get to see the consequences of letting men approach you.

And id recently learned how physically weak i am and was looking into self defence classes. I cant punch. I cant push someone off me. So it doesnt leave a lot of escape options. So i chatted like i normally do; friendly. I was happy talking about sex as a general subject. But i didnt want sex. I was already in a lot of pain due to some health stuff.

So when the no thank you was ignored i think my brain just went.. its gonna happen anyway so try to control where it happens so its more private. I kept thinking of him being gentlemanly because he was showing moments of consideration - ignoring that he was deliberately not talking to me when i tried to direct towards my comfort level or talking whilst walking away so id have to follow to hear.

Another reason i wanted to share in this sub is because there were moments of thinking i will activate the HS any moment now and it wont be assault anymore because ill be enjoying it. I tried pretty hard to concentrate on the initial arousal from being stimulated. But i still didn’t want to be there or doing it. And then it became so painful that the pain was the only thing available to me.

It would make so much more sense to me if it was something that started consensual and changed..or it was immediately violent. Instead its this confusing blend of my submission and a stranger making the choice to assault.

I often make use of the HS to use my body’s natural painkillers. Particularly with period pain 🙏

I just wish it would work with the most disabling of pains - migraine and toothache. Tried all available painkillers in my house on Friday. Still needed 14 hours sleep to get semi human.

Pushed forward my septum piercing because I have prescribed aspirin for migraines (but cant take aspirin in the run up to a piercing). So now i look cute but my nose hurts with 2 piercings in a week. AND my mouth thought..fuk it, we want in on this. So, the right side of my face is yelling in pain and its starting to radiate to my eye and ear 👍🏻

I think if i tried to use sex to kill this pain id probably vomit. Or accidentally knock the nose ring for a second time today and re-tear the skin. What in the midlife crisis possessed me to get all the nose piercings at once 😆💀 i suppose i should be grateful that my ADHD lateness prevented me from getting the ear piercings i wanted too.

Not exactly HS related as such. Maybe a view into the impulsive side of things.

Also i didnt realise how invisible even nose piercings are until you have one. I have been enjoying browsing the mid life femmes getting their nose piercings and tattoos.

A NSFW goal met (sexual act discussion but not sexualised language). Please ifnore the post if you think it will trigger you x

Tldr trigger safe version is that i was struggling with a sex act 2 years ago and this week i managed to do it for 3 hours in a club :)

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For a lady who had a severe cum aversion and super reactive gag reflex about 18 months to 2 years ago.. its crazy that I managed to have a cock in my mouth about 3 hours and not experience too bad a gag. I didnt swallow but i coped with temporarily having cum in my mouth and then spitting it out. (Ladylike in the first hour..trashy whore style by hour 3 🤭)

I sat in a glory hole for a little while and it was a bit strange but I loved the fact no one could take over my pace by holding my head.

Now my next goal is to work out how to correctly manage multiple cocks in a way that doesnt feel like i am accidentally doing someone a disservice.

Hi all

I had my first sex club experience. I really enjoyed it and didnt require additional lube. But.. over 3 hours of penetration still causes friction and swelling.

I just wondered if anyone had done a gangbang/train and had an idea of when my vagina might be herself again.

Dont get me wrong, im not hating the effortless super tight grip she has without fully locking. But its also a mild kind of torture to have that keep me aroused all the time but any release be mixed with pain and potential for more friction “burns”.

Im guessing that next time i should add lube regardless of my own wetness??

Oh and can someone please make me feel normal for the unfortunate vagina air release whenever someone made me gag on their 🍆? Embarrassing! Didnt even realise air was being packed up there